Thursday Mar 30, 2006

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i'm living.

discovering the secrets of the universe through shrooms. ($20)

new tattoo. ($200 + opiates)

buying used jesus and mary chain cd. ($8)

merry anne's. ($50 + over the last month)

champaign memories. (not so fucking priceless, i realize.) whatever
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chocolatejesus:
Are you sure that discovering the universe through shrooms isn't priceless?
spanishboi:
Merry Anne's is amazing! I eat there tons!

Thursday Mar 16, 2006

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dear patton, why? why? why norah jones? huff.

my initial distaste for manko has developed into a delicious obsession. it always happens this way. maybe i just like the way she says 'uneducated'..

makes my tights all sticky.

more to come, eventually.
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stinabean:
that manko, she's a flippin hottie...also way to suck at updating! psh! biggrin
stinabean:
you're disgustingly pervy

it's hot

Wednesday Feb 22, 2006

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stingray69:
You need to chill out and enjoy yourself some of that there existence. I suggest a nice warm bath with all the bubbles and such. Afterwards, a nice bottle of wine, I suggest something from the Firesteed vineyard, and then maybe someone or something to do some snuggling with... smile
mattbavougian:
I already threw it out
sorry

Saturday Feb 18, 2006

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something is very wrong.

i feel no familiarity with.. anything. something tells me there's no escaping, and that i might wake up tomorrow morning with a new life and body; a new past i can tap into. some pre-woven tapestry i just don't seem to connect with. and i know that no matter how different this life may be, i think i'll think and feel...
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jonnytrrrash7:
I think we all get/feel disembodied sometimes, I hope you come back soon!
tadzi:
i really truly know what you mean...ive had those moments of clarity as well, and its scary.

Saturday Feb 11, 2006

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i've been busy. really, really busy.

dated an 8.5 inch wang for a short while. he fucked like a retard and cheated on me with a girl who has sex with mexicans for $10 apiece.

i was sort of relieved.

met a writer. sat with him at a diner counter for five hours, chatting, telling jokes, writing flirty little poems back and forth.. puke

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jonnytrrrash7:
why is love so complex??
l7rules:
Happy Valentines day! love love kiss

Monday Jan 23, 2006

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i'll be missing these beer-soaked sidewalks soon.

working at a tea shop in long grove. according to a dear friend of mine, the old couple that owns the shop think tattoos are 'cute'. so i'm in like flynn.

champaign gave me the most beautiful autumn i've ever seen in my life. i wish i'd taken more pictures. maybe i'll come back next year.

once i'm...
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unmk:
hope things keep looking up for you. smile
stinabean:
um yeah i'm pretty sure it's time for an update right about now ya knowz? for realz.


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Friday Jan 06, 2006

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ahh-ha.

bob was in wheeling for the new year, so he went to my parents' house. he called to tell me that everyone in the house (my mother, my step-father, bill ((the guy living with my mother and step-father, i've known him since i was 5)), and various other 'party guests') was SHROOMING. and it's a huge house. he said my usually lackadaisical mother was...
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stinabean:
super cute pictures...i like my hair straight too and i've been considering the bangs thing. you've inspired me!!!!

edit cuz i'm just a fag and can't type

[Edited on Jan 22, 2006 11:33PM]
stinabean:
p.s. you're like the cutest chick ever biggrin

Monday Jan 02, 2006

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i uh.. heh.. walked into a doorframe this morning. knocked myself clean out.

on the upside, i called work and they told me i could come in 2 hours late.

new years was.. uneventful.

as have been the last few months.

i need to walk down more dark alleys.
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unmk:
I've walked into walls in my time. happends to the best of us. The odds are raised if you suffer from vertigo. wink

Right now I'd kill for a mellow life but I know after a short time I'd be wishing for action again and to get out of thte rut.

Maybe something will pop up for you.
stinabean:
dark alleys eh? sounds like walking into violent sexual encounters....mind if i join you?

Monday Dec 19, 2005

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Is it self-righteous of me to pride myself on being a nice person?

There's this woman at my work. She's about middle-aged, lazy-eyed, and immensely squirrelly-looking. Everyone avoids her, obviously, because it's HARD to talk to lazy-eyed people. You're never sure which eye to focus on, and you usually end up shifting your gaze to the floor, or to something around you. It doesn't help...
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yuriel:
I think you rock for being nice -sigh-
I wish everyone were.

It's not really self righteous if its the truth right?
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-hugs-

I am much in the same light on both sides of the coin....
EL SUICIDO LOCO
unmk:
Good for you for being yourself. Don't beat yourself up about it. I know where you are at. I talk to anyone who needs to talk, and I love to just listen. Maybe it stems from having been shunned by other kids when I was growing up but hey it's who I am. *shrugs*
I always feel sorry for the people who did talk to those who are differant they are missing out the majority of the time. Honestly it seems that those who get ignored are a great source of jokes/information/you name it.

Go ahead and feel proud that you're differant. wink

Thursday Dec 08, 2005

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conan! what is best in life?

crush the enemy.
see him driven before you.
hear the lamentations of the women.

shit yeah, bishes.

things are goood. although i've been crying a shit-ton lately. not serious crying, just breaking into sobs for no reason. whenever it's about to happen, i run to the bathroom so bob (or whatever houseguests i might be entertaining) doesn't notice. i...
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yuriel:
-hugs-
the simple victories eh dear.

man i wish that aunt of mine would just go back on a permanent fucking vacation or something.
EL SUICIDO LOCO
unmk:
Yeah it seems that good things happening or the emergance of good feelings tends to be hard to get used to. Been there, still kind of working through it wink

I hope that everything goes well with your family. I have to deal with my mom on christmas day. I know I'll be having a couple of shots back to back when I get home from that.
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