what a crazy weird beautiful week it's been.
sunday night i met a really wonderful man at one of the local salem bars. it's the sort of bar where you just end up talking to random strangers a lot, so when we started chatting, i really didn't think anything of it. half an hour later, i realized that we were still talking, that he was pretty attractive, that he seemed to be attracted to me, and that he had a brain in that pretty head of his. this set of 4 circumstances has been pretty much non-existent in my life in oh, say, the past year or so. what a delightful and completely unexpected surprise!
sunday night turned to monday, tuesday.... today. kisses and tangled limbs and lots of smiles and laughing and instant, inherent goodness. and tomorrow morning, at 8AM, i'll drop him off at south station and he'll return back to his real life. in connecticut. yes, i said connecticut.
^&^%&#$%!@$#
if we were different people, this might not be such a problem. but he has his life, i have mine, and there is no common ground in our future. that's part of why it's been so great -- two people happy in their own lives colliding and combining for a moment before parting again, only slightly changed for the experience. utter honesty about reality and grasping the moment for what it is.
i wish there were more moments to come. i am greedy that way. but i've savored the ones that we've had. and maybe a trial relationship, a reminder that i'm not inherently broken, was just what i needed. training wheels to get me back on the road again.
still, tomorrow's gonna be a bummer. it was good to care again.
sunday night i met a really wonderful man at one of the local salem bars. it's the sort of bar where you just end up talking to random strangers a lot, so when we started chatting, i really didn't think anything of it. half an hour later, i realized that we were still talking, that he was pretty attractive, that he seemed to be attracted to me, and that he had a brain in that pretty head of his. this set of 4 circumstances has been pretty much non-existent in my life in oh, say, the past year or so. what a delightful and completely unexpected surprise!
sunday night turned to monday, tuesday.... today. kisses and tangled limbs and lots of smiles and laughing and instant, inherent goodness. and tomorrow morning, at 8AM, i'll drop him off at south station and he'll return back to his real life. in connecticut. yes, i said connecticut.
^&^%&#$%!@$#
if we were different people, this might not be such a problem. but he has his life, i have mine, and there is no common ground in our future. that's part of why it's been so great -- two people happy in their own lives colliding and combining for a moment before parting again, only slightly changed for the experience. utter honesty about reality and grasping the moment for what it is.
i wish there were more moments to come. i am greedy that way. but i've savored the ones that we've had. and maybe a trial relationship, a reminder that i'm not inherently broken, was just what i needed. training wheels to get me back on the road again.
still, tomorrow's gonna be a bummer. it was good to care again.