i have this ongoing fantasy of running away to california and becoming a beach bum surfer grrl for the rest of my days.
(i blame this fantasy on point reyes, one very perfect day and one long summer of jack johnson.)
but it doesn't come to the forefront of my mind all the time. i can go days/months/years without giving it a moment's thought.
it seems to show up, not when things in my life are going badly..... but rather, when people in my life let me down. i can take job loss, financial problems, depression and other assorted ills in stride.
but goddamn, when someone turns out to not be the person that i thought they were, even in just the slightest way, i want to run as far and as fast in the opposite direction as possible. to someplace where i don't know anyone at all, not a single soul.
because then no one will let me down.
(cheerful today, aren't i?)
(i blame this fantasy on point reyes, one very perfect day and one long summer of jack johnson.)
but it doesn't come to the forefront of my mind all the time. i can go days/months/years without giving it a moment's thought.
it seems to show up, not when things in my life are going badly..... but rather, when people in my life let me down. i can take job loss, financial problems, depression and other assorted ills in stride.
but goddamn, when someone turns out to not be the person that i thought they were, even in just the slightest way, i want to run as far and as fast in the opposite direction as possible. to someplace where i don't know anyone at all, not a single soul.
because then no one will let me down.
(cheerful today, aren't i?)
remember, your tattoo says no regrets.