Hello SGLand,
I should have wrote a blog yesterday, but I think part of me didnt want to believe that I was not going back to Alyeska house for good. I just wanted to think that I just went to my dads house for the weekend. I guess part of me was in denial and couldnt show the emotions I was actually feeling. I also think I took this better this time cause I knew that she would have to move back the moment she moved up here. So It was a little easier then last time, but that doesnt mean I am not heatbroken. This is crazy and feels so weird. I miss Alyeska a lot, even though its only been two days. It makes it hard because we were with each other 24/7 and I did basically live with her, so it just doesnt feel like "this" (where I am right now) is home. Maybe its just the fact that now I am starting to realize she is not 35 miles away anymore, she is more like 1000 miles away.
I think I am kinda glad in a way that I couldn't show her how I was truely feeling at the full extent, because I think that would have just stressed her out even more than what she was already having to deal with. Plus it was something she couldnt do anything about. I do miss her though and changes come. I knew it was going to happen, but I will always miss her little house that we would hide out in. I will miss sitting in the love seat watching movies together or watching hockey,like it was our hidey-hole. I miss taking trips with her whether it was just driving to the closest Subway or Bdubs and getting our usual or actually taking roadtrips to lincoln or Ohio or even our spontaneous decison to take a trip to boston. I love that girl to death and I literally had one the the best times with her this past year.
Anyways I am trying to get stuff ready to go back to school in a couple of weeks. I am trying to clean up this room and pack so I dont have to do this at the last minute. Part of me just wants to get this over with so I dont have to deal with this shit, but part of me just doesnt want to go back to this specific school. I think I am gonna get back on MGF though. So I make money for trips to texas or tattoos or maybe another set. Idk about a new set yet though. I havent been able to come up with money for one yet since I dont have a job or a car to get a job. >.< All I know is I need money. Alyeska the one that renewed my account so I could have a couple more months. Otherwise my account would have expired. So thanks again to her, I appriciate that. Maybe thank her by leaving more comments on her set. I want that awesome set to make her go pink already!
Basically that is what my life has in store for me until I go back to school. lol
Ill keep you updated as much as I can.
Reekie
I should have wrote a blog yesterday, but I think part of me didnt want to believe that I was not going back to Alyeska house for good. I just wanted to think that I just went to my dads house for the weekend. I guess part of me was in denial and couldnt show the emotions I was actually feeling. I also think I took this better this time cause I knew that she would have to move back the moment she moved up here. So It was a little easier then last time, but that doesnt mean I am not heatbroken. This is crazy and feels so weird. I miss Alyeska a lot, even though its only been two days. It makes it hard because we were with each other 24/7 and I did basically live with her, so it just doesnt feel like "this" (where I am right now) is home. Maybe its just the fact that now I am starting to realize she is not 35 miles away anymore, she is more like 1000 miles away.
I think I am kinda glad in a way that I couldn't show her how I was truely feeling at the full extent, because I think that would have just stressed her out even more than what she was already having to deal with. Plus it was something she couldnt do anything about. I do miss her though and changes come. I knew it was going to happen, but I will always miss her little house that we would hide out in. I will miss sitting in the love seat watching movies together or watching hockey,like it was our hidey-hole. I miss taking trips with her whether it was just driving to the closest Subway or Bdubs and getting our usual or actually taking roadtrips to lincoln or Ohio or even our spontaneous decison to take a trip to boston. I love that girl to death and I literally had one the the best times with her this past year.
Anyways I am trying to get stuff ready to go back to school in a couple of weeks. I am trying to clean up this room and pack so I dont have to do this at the last minute. Part of me just wants to get this over with so I dont have to deal with this shit, but part of me just doesnt want to go back to this specific school. I think I am gonna get back on MGF though. So I make money for trips to texas or tattoos or maybe another set. Idk about a new set yet though. I havent been able to come up with money for one yet since I dont have a job or a car to get a job. >.< All I know is I need money. Alyeska the one that renewed my account so I could have a couple more months. Otherwise my account would have expired. So thanks again to her, I appriciate that. Maybe thank her by leaving more comments on her set. I want that awesome set to make her go pink already!
Basically that is what my life has in store for me until I go back to school. lol
Ill keep you updated as much as I can.
Reekie
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silversurfer:
I think it's really great that you got to spend so much time with Alyeska in the last few months. So, it's a big change, not having her close by, but you'll get more used to it over time. And also you'll be busy with school soon. Anyway, I hope you keep your SG membership, because it's not that expensive, and it's fun talking to lots of different people online here, including A. 