Wow. I am sorry its been really hectic, especially in being able to get on the internet, I have working so hard trying to get the last minute things for school done before finals, and making sure I am giving the attention to people I care about.
I Just got back from break and I am ready to go back on break. : /
I hope your thanksgiving went better then mine..
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
Ok. so to explain all the crap that happened in the shortest possible way..
It was basically a bunch of plans that went wrong.
So originally I had the plan to go to my dads house and we were going to celebrate thanksgiving on Friday so my little sister could be there, and my best friend's husband was supposed to be on leave from deployment and was going to spend time with her and made sure she had company for the holidays. No one likes being alone.
THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. >.< So frustrating.. for everyone.
Then I got news that his leave date was pushed back and was no longer coming home for thanksgiving. She was so upset( and I don't blame her) and I thought I would give her company instead since she needed me more then my dad and what he calls thanksgiving. Basically what I do every time I see him. :/ So nothing special.
So I thought yeah I just talk with him and explain why I think my best friend needs me more right now then him. I know that sounds mean but you have to know my situation. Its hard to show it here in a blog, but trust me it was worth it to miss.
then my dad got all upset and was trying to make me feel bad, and I wasn't having it. But I was getting very frustrated on how to make both of them happy. That was a mistake because it lead to a misunderstanding which lead to a chaos, when all I wanted to do was make no one mad at me. I did the reverse. >.<
Any way I came up with the idea to go home with him Wednesday, Thursday( actual thanksgiving) and just not tell him I was leaving for the weekend to give my best friend the comfort she needed at the time. Well my dad wanted me on Friday but so did my best friend because she wanted help with bringing cats back from her dads house (6hrs away) and just the company in general.
Well I chose to leave Thursday night and join my best friend to help her. My dad got all butt hurt and now is not talking to me because he feels I left family for a friend. He doesn't understand the relationship my best friend and I have. I cant just leave her when she needs me the most. So that was frustrating.
So she picked me up after a long war between who I was going to be with for Friday. We got up and drove 6hrs to her Nana's house and had thanksgiving there and then with left about two hours later with two adorable cats. I love them to death. It was exhausting week.
Uuuh my dad. seriously anyway sorry to ramble. I still haven't heard from my dad and I sure he is not gonna speak to me for a while, but I think I did the right thing and what I thought was necessary. Leave me a comment and tell me what you think. that would help cause I still feel guilt for everything that happened
In the end it ended up being great!
Oh so yummy! I actually had mine yesterday. My best friend and I hung out and she cooked me a delicious meal. Included an itty-bitty-turkey, mash potatoes, green bean casserole, homemade stuffing, biscuits, and sparkling grape juice. I would have pictures for you but she doesn't have them up yet, so maybe a edit later if you wanna check it out then. It was sooo good and honestly I am glad the way things turned out I just wish there wasn't so much upset.
Reekie <3
And then the whole conversation we had where she told me why she didn't see me as anything more than a friend really pissed me off. The few weeks before that conversation, she had been avoiding me like the plague. I knew things were headed south, but I kept making an effort to get her to come hang out with me and to see different sides of me. So then she tells me that I'm not X, Y, or Z and I'm just like, how the hell do you know what I'm not when you've never let me be anything other than just a simple friend? When you've never had a chance to see anything that I may have to offer.
I mean, normally I don't have a problem with rejection...But this one is just different. I put in a lot of time and effort with this girl and fell for her pretty damn hard...It just effing sucks lol