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Monday May 23, 2005

May 23, 2005
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Is it possible to love someone when you go to sleep and not love them when you wake?

I've been with this guy for about 8 months on and off. We have our problems, but then who doesn't. We had a big fight because I want to move and he doesn't so we split. About a week later he calls me and wants to talk. So we talk. He tells me that he really couldn't live without me so when I decide on a place he will start looking at the options he has so that we can be together. I about fell over dead at this point because we've been pretty quiet about our relationship. Our close friends know and our families but outside of that we didn't tell anyone.
I was so excited that I was going to be able to move with him and start a life with him.
I wake up today and I don't feel about him the way I did. This is a problem. frown
I don't think I ever saw us ending up together. But I loved him dearly and the thought of him not being in my life is disturbing but i could handle it. I really could.
It all goes back to this dream I had where I had left and not told him I was going because he hurt me. I then came back to visit and he came to my parents house and told me he loved me. Well I was maried to another man in my dream and my ex who showed up at my door tried to kill himself in front of me.
I realized then that I could just walk away from him. It would hurt me but I could do it. Now I may not have to leave him behind but I'm thinking of doing it anyway. It doesn't make any sense.

On top of all this I met another guy. I like him, have a crush on him if you will. Is this new guy the kind of guy I could fall for? I'm not sure. I am attracted to him... he makes me feel beautiful. I look forward to seeing him. I wanted to see him this comming Sunday but I have to work, so I'm all bummed out.
I was supposed to see my current guy tonight but I just wasn't looking forward to it so I told him I didn't feel well.

Is it possible that I just don't love him anymore??
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
pskank:
Hmmm still indifferent about that someone?
Jun 22, 2005
redwoman:
No that someone is history. I just couldn't allow myself to be drawn down by him anymore.
Jun 23, 2005

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