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My very lazy weekend

I got an invite to a BBQ yesterday. I really wanted to go however a few things prevented me. the airconditining in my car needs re-charging so the 2hr long drive down to twickenham would have been like a sauna, I would not have been able to drink and also, I perhaps only know a one person. I have met her friends before, ages ago, but it seemed I needed a bit more 'backup' for me to create the effort.

So I planned to go and sort out my car and alas that did not happpen. Placed my ass on the couch and apathetic i can ever be, watched several episodes to Knight Rider. Yes, the new one. Yes, it is that bad.

One of the reasons of me wanting to go is that my gf is away and me wanting to go and do something totally different. And I have the itch. The kinda itch where I'm thinking whether this relationship is going anywhere. The kinda itch where I have to be totally selfish. The kinda itch where I would need to reduce myself to a social whore again and that did not feel good. I pride myself of being on the cusp observing multiple social circles, rather being in the centre of one. Its more fun and matches my personality - I can never be in the centre of attention - its not my style. what is? I'm an independent jack of all trades but a master of none. =D