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yes, journal update for angus!

well, it has been an extremely bizarre month or two. basically, i got the boy back, lost the boy again (hopefully for good this time), met a couple of incredible people, got violently ill, fever of 104, hospital, cut all my hair off, and nailed down my plans for next semester. which is the exciting part. i am almost 100...
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she is his capitol
he is her stake
theirs is a bond
nothing can break
they are inseparable
im envious
but this cant be it
what they call success

it must be wonderful
to be so miserable

these are the elements
inertia and fear
that drove them together
and they wound up here
nobody offered them
a better idea
a decent excuse
a ride out...
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holy cow, an update.

i want to update because today is a good day and i want a record of it so i can look back and say "i had a good day that one time."

i worked some more on my foster p. wallace story today and i'm getting really excited about it. i realized when i started writing it earlier this week how...
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this is an impression of me updating:

ahhhhhhhhhhggggggkkkkk. save me from exams!!!

this journal entry is dedicated to raleigh boy because he is awesome and i am lame about the journal upkeeping business.

hm. let me see here. it is 36 degrees here in asheville and the wind chill is like 18. so, we are all freezing our respective asses off and i demand to know what happened to fall.

i turned 21 a week and a...
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"love, in its shortest form, becomes a word."

it's true that people forget years and remember moments. four years of hard work, pain and perseverance and all i remember is one night spent in a hotel room watching a man who showed no emotion melt into a teary-eyed boy who thought he was in love.

now, tonight, i feel like ripping out my insides and...
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isn't it strange how no matter how much you add things up in your head and it all comes out even and you know you can do something crazy and get away with it pretty much without any permanent scars, you still get that queasy, eh-i-can't-do-this feeling in your gut?

me = crazy nervous and shaky like that bowl of jello in that scene in...
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wow. i did not at all realize it has been so long since i updated. everything computer related jumped down several notches on my priority list just because the only computer that is readily available to me is on dial up and it makes me want to go on a shooting spree every time i use it.

i have been suffering from extreme withdrawal ever...
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hey guys and gals.

comin' to ya from suburbia, north carolina, where i am stationed due to rent so cheap it's free and a dog named daisy who has plum run away with my heart (and, periodically, my shoes).
i got myself a jorb that requires me to wear a promotional t-shirt two sizes too large and a name tag. i work that cash register...
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what up guys. let's check and see if it is way past time for me to update. uh huh. uh huh. yep. just as i suspected.

so! i am in a pretty damn spectacular mood because i just discovered that the hell-of-huge, scary paper that i thought was supposed to be ten pages in actuality only has to be six! and i have written five...
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