and so..
my life seems to be getting back on track, except for those fucking nightmares that dont seem to want to leave me alone. my last assignment of the year is due in thursday, and of course, i've yet to start.
been watching Lost like its my job, and to be frank, i may just have a little obsession with the show. with sawyer,...
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my life seems to be getting back on track, except for those fucking nightmares that dont seem to want to leave me alone. my last assignment of the year is due in thursday, and of course, i've yet to start.
been watching Lost like its my job, and to be frank, i may just have a little obsession with the show. with sawyer,...
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fucking nightmares.
ever been concious enough to wake yourself up from one?
i just did. and thank god.
i woke up and was like wtf. i'm sweating balls, and i was semi whimpering to myself.
i feel like i just had a fucking heartattack.
and it took me hours to get to sleep.
fuck you, body.
ever been concious enough to wake yourself up from one?
i just did. and thank god.
i woke up and was like wtf. i'm sweating balls, and i was semi whimpering to myself.
i feel like i just had a fucking heartattack.
and it took me hours to get to sleep.
fuck you, body.
northstar:
fuckin nightmares is right...
probably the worst to wake up from.
im glad you grew some proverbial balls....
what happened?? did she cry?
im so mean.
xo
probably the worst to wake up from.
im glad you grew some proverbial balls....
what happened?? did she cry?
im so mean.
xo
northstar:
hey.. am i fatter in real life than i am in my pictures??
do you know that feeling where you just feel like you're in the wrong place, or just lost yourself altogether?
that would be me.
ottawa is a dull, dreary place... from what i've experienced. and over half the time, i feel that the people that i've met at the university are doing completely different things with their lives than i am. i see no drive,...
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that would be me.
ottawa is a dull, dreary place... from what i've experienced. and over half the time, i feel that the people that i've met at the university are doing completely different things with their lives than i am. i see no drive,...
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ardour:
I've been here for... four years now, and I find that I still get the same feeling as you.
Ottawa is just kind of lame... I guess. Especially if you're not from here. I mean, if you want to go do downtown Ottawa, you have about five blocks of downtown and then you're done. It's not very fun....
The most fun I have right now in my life would be my weekly ritual of going for a coffee every saturday night and writing in my journal. It sounds pathetic, but as soon as I started doing it, I felt a lot better about myself. Yeah, still lonely as hell, but it's something fun to look forward to every week now.
Of course, I don't have any real drive or focus, so maybe I'm the wrong person to talk to. What is it you want to do?
Most university kids piss me off, because they're just high school kids with their first taste of freedom. They are going to school because they feel like they have to and not because they want to. They are going to become accountants or whatever because it's what's expected of them, and they can make money that way. They will mindlessly party like there's no tomorrow (unless there's an exam the next day, off course!) and when university is done they'll grab the nearest person, marry them, and then have kids and buy a house. Boring.
Not to harp on people who go to university, because I think university is great... it's just the majority of people there are like the majority of people everywhere else...
I don't have much idea on what I want to do, but I know it's not that. I'm hoping something works out when I do eventually take some college courses. I'm not doing something I don't have a passion for.
Passion is important, and I think it's hard to find intelligent, passionate people ANYWHERE. You and I didn't grow up here (I'm assuming you didn't based on what you've said) and so we don't have that group of high school friends who we experienced everything with. Trust is another thing most people simply do not deserve, I've been backstabbed many more times by people than I've actually made real friendships. Thing is, everyone gets so used to everyone else being shallow assholes that we begin to expect it, and eventually accept it, if we're not careful.
I'm on a solitude kick right now, so I'm not online much... but if you're up for talking, you can MSN or E-mail me. I think I know exactly how you feel, and am more than willing to listen.
I'm five years older than you, and still in the same spot, but don't let that discourage you. I still have faith that things will change!
Ottawa is just kind of lame... I guess. Especially if you're not from here. I mean, if you want to go do downtown Ottawa, you have about five blocks of downtown and then you're done. It's not very fun....
The most fun I have right now in my life would be my weekly ritual of going for a coffee every saturday night and writing in my journal. It sounds pathetic, but as soon as I started doing it, I felt a lot better about myself. Yeah, still lonely as hell, but it's something fun to look forward to every week now.
Of course, I don't have any real drive or focus, so maybe I'm the wrong person to talk to. What is it you want to do?
Most university kids piss me off, because they're just high school kids with their first taste of freedom. They are going to school because they feel like they have to and not because they want to. They are going to become accountants or whatever because it's what's expected of them, and they can make money that way. They will mindlessly party like there's no tomorrow (unless there's an exam the next day, off course!) and when university is done they'll grab the nearest person, marry them, and then have kids and buy a house. Boring.
Not to harp on people who go to university, because I think university is great... it's just the majority of people there are like the majority of people everywhere else...
I don't have much idea on what I want to do, but I know it's not that. I'm hoping something works out when I do eventually take some college courses. I'm not doing something I don't have a passion for.
Passion is important, and I think it's hard to find intelligent, passionate people ANYWHERE. You and I didn't grow up here (I'm assuming you didn't based on what you've said) and so we don't have that group of high school friends who we experienced everything with. Trust is another thing most people simply do not deserve, I've been backstabbed many more times by people than I've actually made real friendships. Thing is, everyone gets so used to everyone else being shallow assholes that we begin to expect it, and eventually accept it, if we're not careful.
I'm on a solitude kick right now, so I'm not online much... but if you're up for talking, you can MSN or E-mail me. I think I know exactly how you feel, and am more than willing to listen.
I'm five years older than you, and still in the same spot, but don't let that discourage you. I still have faith that things will change!
northstar:
chin up lady.
it'll get better when spring hits.
im also usually available for tea with pretty ladies... even if they are from carleton.
it'll get better when spring hits.
im also usually available for tea with pretty ladies... even if they are from carleton.
OTTAWA.!!!
theres a party at grace o malleys on merivale tomorrow night (thursday).... my party.
get there before 11, jump the line and tell them you're with renee's party, and you'll be in no problem.
i want to see you there.
YOU HEAR?!
no doubt i'll be trashed... and when i'm trashed i tend to take my clothes off.... involuntarily.
i'll be looking something like...
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theres a party at grace o malleys on merivale tomorrow night (thursday).... my party.
get there before 11, jump the line and tell them you're with renee's party, and you'll be in no problem.
i want to see you there.
YOU HEAR?!
no doubt i'll be trashed... and when i'm trashed i tend to take my clothes off.... involuntarily.
i'll be looking something like...
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ardour:
I hope you had a blast!
issay:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
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elliott:
mega salivation mwahahaha as we say here
'i loved it!'
mega salivation mwahahaha as we say here
'i loved it!'
khoos:
Am I supposed to wish you a happy birthday today or tomorrow?
And I agree with ardour. you are the luckiest person alive.
And I agree with ardour. you are the luckiest person alive.
those in ottawa.. march 1st will be when i celebrate my 19th birthday. i would like you to be there, cause i'd like to finally meet some of you.
got any suggestions as to where i should hold it? if you've got ideas... i'll take em!
got any suggestions as to where i should hold it? if you've got ideas... i'll take em!
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agenda:
fly me out hoochie mama. i'm up for a par-tay
caitsey:
Siiiiick, I'm so down. I suggest the Dom or Zaphods.
its 3:50 am. i have two assignments due tomorrow.. one of which is done... and what the fuck am i doing.? my stupid ass is on facebook, myspace and SG simultaneously. i might as well jump in front of a truck right now seeing as this assignment is going nowhere.
i know what i'm supposed to be doing, and i know the facts that i...
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ardour:
Blah to school.
teknomage:
Am afraid I can't provide an answer for the assignment question or to why women drive us insane. Hope it works out for you though? (^_^)
so i bought some siamese fighting fish... well no. i bought one, and my friend sarah got another, but we're beginning to get so bored we're thinking of putting them in the same bowl to watch them fight it out. cruel i know... so i'm looking for things to do to keep me entertained.
classes have started and i'm also freezing my tits off. i'm...
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classes have started and i'm also freezing my tits off. i'm...
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vivid:
aw thank you love. Im glad you enjoy my nudity. =)
issay:
my heating was down today, my house was 8 degrees it was horrible
ps can I come see ur fish?
ps can I come see ur fish?
i find myself eating a whole load of crap here. the caf seems to only serve shit, and the little restaurants around here serve shit too. and then theres me, too lazy to go to loblaws to get some shopping done. the prospect of having to lug everything either onto the bus or onto the train isnt really that attractive. so i guess i'm either...
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issay:
I probally won't be there much untill after school resumes but i will be there on the 13th
elliott:
HEY! now with this new see into your groups thing, i can see you're part of gay girls only too.
god we rock.
god we rock.
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silentwhisper:
Wow, you are just beautiful!
millerman325:
lovely
holy jesus. i'm sorry for taking this long to update, its not like many people read this thing anyways.
so i'm in ottawa, without an ID, which basically means i've been restricted to fucking Hull/Gatineau. which really isnt all that. classes have been a bitch, as has the workload, but then theres me, procrastinating and avoiding work at all costs.
hopefully i wont fail.
i've...
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so i'm in ottawa, without an ID, which basically means i've been restricted to fucking Hull/Gatineau. which really isnt all that. classes have been a bitch, as has the workload, but then theres me, procrastinating and avoiding work at all costs.
hopefully i wont fail.
i've...
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northstar:
i was home for a week and a half and i've been back in ottawa chillin since wednesday.
when are you done exams?
are you going home for christmas?
when are you done exams?
are you going home for christmas?
issay:
me to! come hang out with me at school! what are taking?
hoooo yeah.
i'm in ottawa bitches. if youre in the area, and are up for meeting someone new, then give me a shout. i want to meet some new friends, and most people on here are pretty awesome...
love. x
i'm in ottawa bitches. if youre in the area, and are up for meeting someone new, then give me a shout. i want to meet some new friends, and most people on here are pretty awesome...
love. x
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elliott:
yes! it is time.
oh. and if you want to check out my rejected set you can do so in this thread:
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/SG+Hopefuls/topics/229372/
dammit. i need lights. lights camera action baby.
oh. and if you want to check out my rejected set you can do so in this thread:
http://suicidegirls.com/groups/SG+Hopefuls/topics/229372/
dammit. i need lights. lights camera action baby.
elliott:
id so be down! but we need a proper camera, and we also need proper lights. ughhh! the expenses would be vast. hahahaha! im trying to get into touch with Cherry -- to see if she can shoot my first set with me. How fuckin awesome would that be? She's sexy AND talented. hahahah w00t. anyway though that could take ages, coz I get the sneaking feeling she's constantly being booked left n right. Oh woe is me. and photobucket sucks for taking down my 'pornographic' photos. hahahaha. When you're next online message me my dear!
it takes time to sift through whos good and whos not. to be honest...ive been in london for liek what...5 years now? And I still have trouble being able to make the proper judgement, init. sorry about my disappearing act on msn the other day. i wanted to see how u were n such coz i actually already read this blog but was too lazy to post
the 7s indeed!! im sposed to be off to amsterdam tomorrow...plane ticket booked n all...but im not doing it. so theres my 'equivalent of partying' flushed down the feckin toilet. heh.
anyway. its for the best. i promise.
hope shit starts to get clearer for u. and when i say shit i mean things. and not actual faeces. uhmm. that's all for now. hahahaha
x
ps....pictures??
im a visual person.