redcalm

My fucking photography teacher is an idiot. He tells the class information that isn't true and shows up at least 15 minutes late everyday. Usually we just mill around and chat to each other while he tries to figure out what he's telling us. Then, last week, the battery in his spot meter died and he had to ask me to use my fucking meter....
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.Motivation.Application.Dedication.Frustration.

DESPERATION

Failure...

Crushed again. Though still, I am undefeated. I am fucking invincible.

Just some thoughts as I sit in class this glorious Thursday.

So I didn't get to speak with the gorgeous sun-kissed girl with the beautiful feet, she had to leave class early and I never got my chance to say anything. I did, however talk to this other girl while in the changing room loading film onto a reel. It was pitch black and needless...
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Today it's warm out and the super-dope girl in my class I've been eyeing had on these flip-flops. I couldn't pay attention to anything but the fact that she had seriously pretty feet. I wanted to suck her fucking toes right there in the middle of class. Seriously.
There's the rest of the quarter to make it happen, and I'm fairly optimistic I'll get my...
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I know it's beating a dead horse, but damn my lights are ill. I'm pulling all types of exposures that were impossible before, like f/64 and all that. This is ill. There's no limit to what I can do now, shit.

I hate my ex-girlfriend so much. She's type who always has to have the last word regardless of how ignorant and ridiculous she sounds. She sickens me. If she is doing something that I don't agree with, and I say something to her about it, she starts yelling and screaming regardless of if she is right or wrong. How dare she degrade me my yelling...
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The cube is nearing completion and my new lighting system is highly effective. I haven't bathed or gone outside in two days and I'm starting to smell a little funky, but fuck it, I have the dopest lights on the block, G. I'm outtie!

I'm about to go crazy waiting for the fucking UPS man, I've been stalking UPS trucks all morning and after I finish drinking this cup of coffee, I'm going to continue the stalking, pacing and nail biting.

Now it's a few hours later, the UPS man is long gone. The equipment I ordered is here, and my studio has light again. And I also have...
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