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Monday May 19, 2008

May 19, 2008
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I heard a quote tonight and found it struck a chord in me . . . "Sometimes we write the things we can't say" How true that is to me you'll never know and maybe even more true is . . . sometime we write the things were afraid to say. For me anytime it's something really hard or really "scary" I write it out. I find safety and comfort in words, even if the person I wrote them for never gets to read them. I have written many letters in my life that have never been sent, and I never had the intention to send. I don't like people to know I'm weak. I put up this strong from like no one can hurt me and I'm invincible, but I cry when I'm alone. And lately I've been alone a lot. I feel like everyone around me has someone . . . and I'm all alone. When I moved to Northern California the only thing that stayed the same and kept me sane was my job. Through all the crazy changes in my life my job has remained constant and today I quit that job, I just hope like hell I didn't just make the biggest mistake of my life, that I didn't give up my one constant, my one sane part of my life. I know I have friends who love and care about me, but most of the time I just feel alone and lost. Everyone around me seems to have some plan for their life that they are working towards and getting closer to everyday. Everyone around me is moving forward and I fear I am standing still.
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glennsweet:

...... we should never be defined, or.... define ourselves by what we do for a living... but rather "what we DO" .... and NEVER defined by who we are with! ........ find another job (or not wink ), find another friend, find another path..... THATS what makes us who we are. Experience life lady!! Sometimes that means breaking all our old ties.... wink
May 20, 2008
slacker_elite:
^^^ +1 (Good advice)

Over the last 10 years or so I've accumulated a stack of "undelivered" letters myself. I never really thought very many other people did that. Sometimes it just helps to organize your thoughts and feelings on paper. If you're like me your mind tends to get a little jumbled and overworked as it is. I wouldn't consider writing letters or crying weaknesses though. It looks like you've experienced a lot of change lately and that can be really hard - but you will become a stronger person because of it. If it makes you feel any better I don't have the answers you're searching for either. I think most people do...
May 26, 2008

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