Why and how can you get depressed for no reason? It happens to me every so often. It completely washes over me body and soul when it comes.
I have no reason to be sad at this moment in time. I have everything I want that I can afford to buy. Nothing horrible has ever happened to me. I have friends that care about me. I have no enemies. Everyone seems to enjoy my company. My family loves me, and they're all in decent health. I'm healthy.
All this and somehow I still get so low and down that it's rediculous. I guess there really is a balance in the mind, and you have to have so much of each emotion in order to keep your mind in it's current condition.
A slight headache at the moment.
Had to work all weekend. The highlight was to get to hang out with my friend I haven't seen in months. He's married, and had a child born several months ago. He, his wifey, a few other friends, and I went out for some midnight bowling after I got off work. I HATE BOWLING, but if it's the only way I get to see one of my closest friends then I'll go. I don't have to play.
The alley was PACKED!! NO lanes open at all, and there were people waiting on the next lane to open. We ended up just riding around telling stories about things we did in the past. All in all it was fun.
TOOL, or so I heard is coming out with a new album in the near future. If they come through here I have to make sure I catch them this time. The last time... which was like 4 years ago or so, my friends car blew a gasket and was pouring transmission fluid everywhere. When we added so more fluid to it, you could see it just pouring straight to the ground. Of course I missed my chance to see the only band I REALLY REALLY care about seeing live. FUCK. I vow not to miss it this time, even if I have to choke a puppy.
Still no decision as to where I'm going to art college, and for what style I shall go to study.
And lastly for the update...
MY CRACKHEAD SAID SHE'S MOVING IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS!!!
And to think that I was about to kill her and shove her underneath my crawlspace. AHHH the patience has payed off. I don't really know if she was telling me the truth, because when she told me, she was crying about someone stealing her car and "medication". She also stopped crying to laugh at a spider that was waiting for lunch next to my back door. She flicked it with her finger and laughed.
She also asked about my wind chimes. There for a while I liked having windchimes on my porch. It was a very lovely sound when it was breezy outside. So anyway, she, for some reason, brought up the wind chimes and said this...(paraphrasing of course, not EXACTLY what she said, but basically)... "You know your windchimes on the porch??" *yes* "and someone tied them up so they wouldn't make anymore noise?" *yup* "I love your windchimes, they're so soothin'. I like to hear'em when I'm goin' to bed at nite."
I laughed and said, "yeah i know I love em." and made my way back into my house saying... "What the FUCK!?!" to myself. She couldn't have been hearing my windchimes here lately. Mine haven't been up in at least a fucking year!
Oh well... at least it was funny in it's akwardness.
Later everyone.
I have no reason to be sad at this moment in time. I have everything I want that I can afford to buy. Nothing horrible has ever happened to me. I have friends that care about me. I have no enemies. Everyone seems to enjoy my company. My family loves me, and they're all in decent health. I'm healthy.
All this and somehow I still get so low and down that it's rediculous. I guess there really is a balance in the mind, and you have to have so much of each emotion in order to keep your mind in it's current condition.
A slight headache at the moment.
Had to work all weekend. The highlight was to get to hang out with my friend I haven't seen in months. He's married, and had a child born several months ago. He, his wifey, a few other friends, and I went out for some midnight bowling after I got off work. I HATE BOWLING, but if it's the only way I get to see one of my closest friends then I'll go. I don't have to play.
The alley was PACKED!! NO lanes open at all, and there were people waiting on the next lane to open. We ended up just riding around telling stories about things we did in the past. All in all it was fun.
TOOL, or so I heard is coming out with a new album in the near future. If they come through here I have to make sure I catch them this time. The last time... which was like 4 years ago or so, my friends car blew a gasket and was pouring transmission fluid everywhere. When we added so more fluid to it, you could see it just pouring straight to the ground. Of course I missed my chance to see the only band I REALLY REALLY care about seeing live. FUCK. I vow not to miss it this time, even if I have to choke a puppy.
Still no decision as to where I'm going to art college, and for what style I shall go to study.
And lastly for the update...
MY CRACKHEAD SAID SHE'S MOVING IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS!!!
And to think that I was about to kill her and shove her underneath my crawlspace. AHHH the patience has payed off. I don't really know if she was telling me the truth, because when she told me, she was crying about someone stealing her car and "medication". She also stopped crying to laugh at a spider that was waiting for lunch next to my back door. She flicked it with her finger and laughed.
She also asked about my wind chimes. There for a while I liked having windchimes on my porch. It was a very lovely sound when it was breezy outside. So anyway, she, for some reason, brought up the wind chimes and said this...(paraphrasing of course, not EXACTLY what she said, but basically)... "You know your windchimes on the porch??" *yes* "and someone tied them up so they wouldn't make anymore noise?" *yup* "I love your windchimes, they're so soothin'. I like to hear'em when I'm goin' to bed at nite."
I laughed and said, "yeah i know I love em." and made my way back into my house saying... "What the FUCK!?!" to myself. She couldn't have been hearing my windchimes here lately. Mine haven't been up in at least a fucking year!
Oh well... at least it was funny in it's akwardness.
Later everyone.
you know there's a colleges group, right? maybe you could post something in there and see where other people are going to school.
and i sincerely hope your crackhead neighbor moves. ah silly crackheads, don't know last night from last year. what a life.