So ive been relly shit at updating latley! I know I know.
ive been, erm, well, taking time to try and find myself as such,. Ive been checking in, seeing whats going on, but not telling you guys whats being going on in my life
Well, where to begin.
the good: I have calmed myself down. Ive been suffering from server panic attacks lately, and the doc's answer was " your supressing something that happened a long time ago, and this is the way its trying to come out" Makes perfect sense, but I felt it was something different. Call it womens intuition.
So i went away for the weekend, well four days to Glastonbury, chilled, ate the BEST veggie food ever, drank the BEST organic wine, and spent time getting back to the basics of me. Then I met someone, who helped me, and made sense of all that was going on in my life, all that had been going on, and now, well now im a lot bloody happier! the only thing that brings on attacks now is work...hence
The bad: Work is sucking my balls! I HATE my job, not the hospital, I love knowing that I am making a difference to some ickle kiddies lives. but the department, the bosses, the management. Its all screwed up. I have an interview to be a PA on the intensive care unit next friday (wish me luck wont ya) but the boss wont let me have the day to prepare. The interview is at 2.45 pm, so gaurenteed the friday mess with stress me out, and ill go to the interview all kuffufled. Still, I guess because im expecting that, ill set myself up for it. Also, he wont let me get a temp in. The director says its ok, ive been doing two ppls jobs for 7 months, and for the last two,ive been doing three ppls jobs. But my line manager is being a tosspot, says I can cope, im tough, and "a bright young girl"
Patronising bastard!
Still, ill get there. I have a positive outlook for once. I want to do what I want to do. Clerical work was a stop gap, now I need me a job as one of a lot of things, chef/cook, events organising, vet nurse, Desk top publishing, photogrpaher, medicaial herbalist.
As you can see they are a bit wide in variety, so im taking some time to find what I really want, then god help the world, because Jasmin is coming to get ya!
the Ugly: Last Thurs night, the rehab unit my nan was in to get her over the stroke gave her an overdose of morphine. She is recovering, but there are SO many gaps in her care its just unacceptable. We are taking the hospitals ass to court, they better prey because Im a stubborn cow and will fight for justice for anyone, let alone me nan!
Anyway, Weekend to myself, going to chill. Have had a LONG LONG bath, pampered myself head to toe, and tonight im going to cook for england.
So what is going on with all of you, guess youve forgotten who I am
Il try become part of the community again, but im poo
ive been, erm, well, taking time to try and find myself as such,. Ive been checking in, seeing whats going on, but not telling you guys whats being going on in my life
Well, where to begin.
the good: I have calmed myself down. Ive been suffering from server panic attacks lately, and the doc's answer was " your supressing something that happened a long time ago, and this is the way its trying to come out" Makes perfect sense, but I felt it was something different. Call it womens intuition.
So i went away for the weekend, well four days to Glastonbury, chilled, ate the BEST veggie food ever, drank the BEST organic wine, and spent time getting back to the basics of me. Then I met someone, who helped me, and made sense of all that was going on in my life, all that had been going on, and now, well now im a lot bloody happier! the only thing that brings on attacks now is work...hence
The bad: Work is sucking my balls! I HATE my job, not the hospital, I love knowing that I am making a difference to some ickle kiddies lives. but the department, the bosses, the management. Its all screwed up. I have an interview to be a PA on the intensive care unit next friday (wish me luck wont ya) but the boss wont let me have the day to prepare. The interview is at 2.45 pm, so gaurenteed the friday mess with stress me out, and ill go to the interview all kuffufled. Still, I guess because im expecting that, ill set myself up for it. Also, he wont let me get a temp in. The director says its ok, ive been doing two ppls jobs for 7 months, and for the last two,ive been doing three ppls jobs. But my line manager is being a tosspot, says I can cope, im tough, and "a bright young girl"
Patronising bastard!
Still, ill get there. I have a positive outlook for once. I want to do what I want to do. Clerical work was a stop gap, now I need me a job as one of a lot of things, chef/cook, events organising, vet nurse, Desk top publishing, photogrpaher, medicaial herbalist.
As you can see they are a bit wide in variety, so im taking some time to find what I really want, then god help the world, because Jasmin is coming to get ya!
the Ugly: Last Thurs night, the rehab unit my nan was in to get her over the stroke gave her an overdose of morphine. She is recovering, but there are SO many gaps in her care its just unacceptable. We are taking the hospitals ass to court, they better prey because Im a stubborn cow and will fight for justice for anyone, let alone me nan!
Anyway, Weekend to myself, going to chill. Have had a LONG LONG bath, pampered myself head to toe, and tonight im going to cook for england.
So what is going on with all of you, guess youve forgotten who I am
Il try become part of the community again, but im poo
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I'm pretty chilled usually ,but i got building work on the go so thats stressing me abit! Lifes usually not to bad. A few gigs and i finally got my bike course,although they left me bugger all time to sort stuff out
Good to here from you honey