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Today, for the first time in about 5 months, I was actually feeling good(without the aid of liquor). There was no particular reason for this, I just felt semi-content and optimistic for a little while. It was such a relief from the complete misery and horrible anxiety I've been feeling. Then, as I was dancing around the house to Duran Duran, she called. It's like she has radar. It was uncanny because I was thinking to myself, 'she's probably gonna call you today 'cause you're smiling and shit all over it.' She did. I know she doesn't intend to make me miserable, but she does, and I let her. I miss her and I love her to the point that it makes me sick. Bleh.