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So what is getting older all about anyway?

I used to think it's about getting wiser and understanding the world better. But if that's it then I'm not doing so well at it. Am I wiser now then when I was in my early twenties? I don't think so. I have more knowledge sure, but how much of it is just esoteric crap? Does it treally help me in my life other then at work or doing well at Trivial Pursuit? I guess I thought that getting older was the process of getting to know yourself and your place in the world better. But very little of that has come my way. It all seems as cloudy and obscured as ever. I still make alot of the same mistakes and stupid errors as before. Maybe now I know that they are mistakes as I make them, but that doesn't really help that much does it?

So that leaves me with the somewhat scary thought that getting older is just more of the same as before. That any change is glacial in speed and microscopic in scope. Or maybe it's like the revolution of the earth, impossible to detect since you are a part of it, but moving at a fantastic rate of speed none the less.

I really hope it's that second one 'cause the first option sucks.