There is no solace nor respite from this delirium... what began with the best of intentions has devolved into a hideous nightmare of truly abysmal proportions.... in the dark now... there is a drive within me so powerful that it completely takes over my sense of reasons and values. Every day of my dark-glassed life I am at the mercy of this insane maddening lust to commit the ultimate crime of horror, and only when it is donw will I be at rest. This is what I intend to do, but I do not know why.....
