The war within by Reapercrm
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
Every night is like world war three in my mind
How is it I survived the battles
The bloodied results when I fought back
The destruction all around
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
He was to lead me into life with lessons
Was more worried about hitting the bottom
The trauma sent me into self destruction
Told myself that love was only in books
A mythology lie told by the media
Forcefully expected to live like everyone else
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
I let one break through the fortress
My heart was shattered and slowly healing
The heart wanted to believe it was real
In the moment I decided to pop a question
Listened and could hear the heart fall apart
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
Two lessons of love that led to betrayal
Two times of hoping for the right outcome
Not afraid of death as a single person
Resealed and left myself dead to rites
No key to the doorway on the other-side
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like it did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
I don’t understand this culture
Got friends who get single on Monday
By Friday they back on the horse
Six months later repeat the cycle
Wonder what happened to real love
Love had become a joke with no punchline
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
One hot day in May in a crowded space
There she was standing out in the crowd
The metal rose radiating calm
Life cruel either right person wrong time
Or wrong person at the right time
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
Wonder if I’ll truly know what the answer is
Life likes to throw me for undeniable loops
Never bring me back but into a deeper rut
Came to peace with the dark
If I kill the meaning before it’s said
I won’t hurt like It did back then
The world kept spinning with me
Stuck in a rut looking dead upon it
Wishing someone come and help wake me
Maybe someday I’ll know