2009
Well, I staved off the Christmas depression well enough. I've been avoiding writing here about my thoughts regarding being alone over the holidays. I wanted to hold a lot of feeling in. Let it all seep through before just writing and rambling on. Plus with family and shows I had little time to connect with here.
Vancouver had snow over the Christmas week. The heavy snowfall made traveling really tough for everyone on Beauty. As we had only a Christmas Eve weekend and day off the next before we had to be back on stage for Boxing day. I was able to trudge through the snow to see my sister in hospital. She was having an extended stay at the centre for Disease control, due to a bout of Tuberculosis. ( Her immunity levels are really low due to HIV - Which she got from a lot of drug use) Oddly the infection was a blessing in disguise for her. An extended stay in the hospital away from all her drinking/druggy friends. Meant she had to stop drinking and other things. Ate real, regular meals for a change. She's actually the healthiest I've seen her since her 20's. I can only hope she looks out for herself. The families been through this with her so often that's it's hard to find hope sometimes. I love my sister even though I don't love the way she's treated all of us when we've tried to help. She apologized for the last time I tried to see her in hospital ( back in 1999, when she had a fungal infection in her heart and pneumonia. She was throwing the presents I brought her, at me and screaming obscenities when I told her that her daughter was in Europe with my parents and wouldn't be visiting . ) So maybe she's turned a page.
For christmas, the Sky-train was a three hour ride out to the burbs ( when it was usually 45 minutes ) to see my folks and family for Christmas. Stopping and starting all the way due to snow on the tracks. I can't help but wonder if there will be the same insanity and snow panic when the same happens next year during the Olympics ( Mind you, If we can even afford it the event now that the economy down south is headed into the ditch - With us in Canada certain to follow. Will anyone even attend? )
I was the fifth wheel as usual. The only single one at the table. ( Even my ex-sister in law has a BF. Who's a part time Stagehand as well. ) I got the gag gift. The book - The Mystery Method " How To Pick up Women" manual. I didn't want to tell everyone.... but I'd read it before. My brother ( who's run off on my Ex-sister in law with a young German Au-pair to Berlin ) Has yet to email me or send a happy new Year message.
New Years was a night out at Sin City fetish night. Most of the people I work with think its kind of weird ( But asked lots of questions about it ) It's all really DDD and T ( Dress-up, Drink , Dance and Tease ) Just an adult Halloween party. The best thing about it is the douche-bag quotient is low. Due to the fact that you have to participate by dressing up in fetish clothes. You just can't show up and gawk. Everyone's really cool and accepting of others. In fact it's the best club environment in town that's not a gay bar that's been invaded by straights. I wish it was every weekend. But the fetish clothing expense is a bit much.
Work-wise, Beauty is back in its storage shed, trailer, where ever they put it. Thankfully I don't have to strike the show. As we don't have a Setup / Run / Strike Clause with the company. I've been bouncing around from e=venue to venue striking Christmas shows and getting ready for the next Opera Carmen ( If I get the call. ) Looking towards the idea of traveling in Feb or March. ( NYC or LV... who knows )
With all this time off I've been looking at 1st Tattoo ideas. Everything either ends up really big and complex. Which is wrong for a 1st tattoo. Or small, but very strong looking Germanic or Viking runes images, always after exploration. Ends up being linked to some White supremacy group. And I admit I've been reading the Christmas Pick up Artist guide for more than just fun. To see if any approach ideas or courage develops....
Well, I staved off the Christmas depression well enough. I've been avoiding writing here about my thoughts regarding being alone over the holidays. I wanted to hold a lot of feeling in. Let it all seep through before just writing and rambling on. Plus with family and shows I had little time to connect with here.
Vancouver had snow over the Christmas week. The heavy snowfall made traveling really tough for everyone on Beauty. As we had only a Christmas Eve weekend and day off the next before we had to be back on stage for Boxing day. I was able to trudge through the snow to see my sister in hospital. She was having an extended stay at the centre for Disease control, due to a bout of Tuberculosis. ( Her immunity levels are really low due to HIV - Which she got from a lot of drug use) Oddly the infection was a blessing in disguise for her. An extended stay in the hospital away from all her drinking/druggy friends. Meant she had to stop drinking and other things. Ate real, regular meals for a change. She's actually the healthiest I've seen her since her 20's. I can only hope she looks out for herself. The families been through this with her so often that's it's hard to find hope sometimes. I love my sister even though I don't love the way she's treated all of us when we've tried to help. She apologized for the last time I tried to see her in hospital ( back in 1999, when she had a fungal infection in her heart and pneumonia. She was throwing the presents I brought her, at me and screaming obscenities when I told her that her daughter was in Europe with my parents and wouldn't be visiting . ) So maybe she's turned a page.
For christmas, the Sky-train was a three hour ride out to the burbs ( when it was usually 45 minutes ) to see my folks and family for Christmas. Stopping and starting all the way due to snow on the tracks. I can't help but wonder if there will be the same insanity and snow panic when the same happens next year during the Olympics ( Mind you, If we can even afford it the event now that the economy down south is headed into the ditch - With us in Canada certain to follow. Will anyone even attend? )
I was the fifth wheel as usual. The only single one at the table. ( Even my ex-sister in law has a BF. Who's a part time Stagehand as well. ) I got the gag gift. The book - The Mystery Method " How To Pick up Women" manual. I didn't want to tell everyone.... but I'd read it before. My brother ( who's run off on my Ex-sister in law with a young German Au-pair to Berlin ) Has yet to email me or send a happy new Year message.
New Years was a night out at Sin City fetish night. Most of the people I work with think its kind of weird ( But asked lots of questions about it ) It's all really DDD and T ( Dress-up, Drink , Dance and Tease ) Just an adult Halloween party. The best thing about it is the douche-bag quotient is low. Due to the fact that you have to participate by dressing up in fetish clothes. You just can't show up and gawk. Everyone's really cool and accepting of others. In fact it's the best club environment in town that's not a gay bar that's been invaded by straights. I wish it was every weekend. But the fetish clothing expense is a bit much.
Work-wise, Beauty is back in its storage shed, trailer, where ever they put it. Thankfully I don't have to strike the show. As we don't have a Setup / Run / Strike Clause with the company. I've been bouncing around from e=venue to venue striking Christmas shows and getting ready for the next Opera Carmen ( If I get the call. ) Looking towards the idea of traveling in Feb or March. ( NYC or LV... who knows )
With all this time off I've been looking at 1st Tattoo ideas. Everything either ends up really big and complex. Which is wrong for a 1st tattoo. Or small, but very strong looking Germanic or Viking runes images, always after exploration. Ends up being linked to some White supremacy group. And I admit I've been reading the Christmas Pick up Artist guide for more than just fun. To see if any approach ideas or courage develops....