A Journal Entry Almost Entirely Concerned About Sex
The worse thing about being a workaholic and being on Workers Comp is:
I'm bored out of my mind......
As I'm male, single, and bored my thoughts are of course for the most part governed by sex. In fact this past week, the thoughts of sex are kind of overbearing. Or rather the thoughts.... coupled with the fact that I'm perpetually single without a job that I can use to hide thoughts of the thoughts of sex in, is kind of overbearing.
When I was seeing a woman and I wasn't busy. I had the ability to focus those thoughts on a particular woman. I miss that. Finishing work at a late hour and going over to the GF's place. Sliding into bed, after a night of loading out some Heavy rock show. Feeling all male, pumped and work dirty. Waking her up for some randy, late night /early morning sex. It was a win/win situation really.
I'd get some fantastic shut eye after a round of sex. While she'd get up in the morning. All glowing and beautiful after several 3am to 6am orgasms. To find I written " I love you" on the bathroom mirror, in her lipstick, before falling back to sleep.
I Miss eating late night pussy.... really that's my real fantasy. Going down on a beautiful woman for about half and hour or so. Looking up at them from between their thighs, as they writhe away. Pursing their lips and moan so quietly in warm, wet, ecstasy. As I'm licking away.
Sliding my hand up her body to breasts. Placing my hand on her chest and pushing down firmly enough that I can feel the pounding of her heart. And try to lick in time as she comes.... Thats the best moment during sex for me. I'm a giver I admit.
The later pneumatic thrusting part is actually kind of boring and requires alot of work on my part. taking a woman, as the ones I've been with for the most part are so passive. And I have to be super aroused by the moment to be the dominate " throw her over like a grill cake and do her again" kind of guy. I think that's why I find the dominant girls at sincity so interesting.
Not because I want to be whipped as a kink. I just like the idea of a woman who likes to actively participate in sex. At least in some way. As opposed to the women I know, who talk to me about it all the time as my friends. But, put up the " We're just friends" shields when I think it's a indicator of interest in my possible participation.
That's one of the huge pluses of working in the field I do. I get to be around Beautiful women ( actresses,singers, dancers, the like ) But, be focused on working, The busy worker guy. Right in the exact place and way that girls like to watch guys. But, be a tech monk. Especially on rock shows.
It tends to put me in a wonderful place. There but not desperate. That one step above audience voyeurs in the pecking order. I get to enjoy thease beautiful women 's loveliness on a higher plain. And those thoughts of sex don't stray into my head.
Unless I'm alone...Like I am... when I'm not working..... And wondering how much my car is going to set me back.
The worse thing about being a workaholic and being on Workers Comp is:
I'm bored out of my mind......
As I'm male, single, and bored my thoughts are of course for the most part governed by sex. In fact this past week, the thoughts of sex are kind of overbearing. Or rather the thoughts.... coupled with the fact that I'm perpetually single without a job that I can use to hide thoughts of the thoughts of sex in, is kind of overbearing.
When I was seeing a woman and I wasn't busy. I had the ability to focus those thoughts on a particular woman. I miss that. Finishing work at a late hour and going over to the GF's place. Sliding into bed, after a night of loading out some Heavy rock show. Feeling all male, pumped and work dirty. Waking her up for some randy, late night /early morning sex. It was a win/win situation really.
I'd get some fantastic shut eye after a round of sex. While she'd get up in the morning. All glowing and beautiful after several 3am to 6am orgasms. To find I written " I love you" on the bathroom mirror, in her lipstick, before falling back to sleep.
I Miss eating late night pussy.... really that's my real fantasy. Going down on a beautiful woman for about half and hour or so. Looking up at them from between their thighs, as they writhe away. Pursing their lips and moan so quietly in warm, wet, ecstasy. As I'm licking away.
Sliding my hand up her body to breasts. Placing my hand on her chest and pushing down firmly enough that I can feel the pounding of her heart. And try to lick in time as she comes.... Thats the best moment during sex for me. I'm a giver I admit.
The later pneumatic thrusting part is actually kind of boring and requires alot of work on my part. taking a woman, as the ones I've been with for the most part are so passive. And I have to be super aroused by the moment to be the dominate " throw her over like a grill cake and do her again" kind of guy. I think that's why I find the dominant girls at sincity so interesting.
Not because I want to be whipped as a kink. I just like the idea of a woman who likes to actively participate in sex. At least in some way. As opposed to the women I know, who talk to me about it all the time as my friends. But, put up the " We're just friends" shields when I think it's a indicator of interest in my possible participation.
That's one of the huge pluses of working in the field I do. I get to be around Beautiful women ( actresses,singers, dancers, the like ) But, be focused on working, The busy worker guy. Right in the exact place and way that girls like to watch guys. But, be a tech monk. Especially on rock shows.
It tends to put me in a wonderful place. There but not desperate. That one step above audience voyeurs in the pecking order. I get to enjoy thease beautiful women 's loveliness on a higher plain. And those thoughts of sex don't stray into my head.
Unless I'm alone...Like I am... when I'm not working..... And wondering how much my car is going to set me back.
bedwelld:
I find that once I start thinking about sex I can't stop. It just keeps coming back. I can forget about money or work but sex is a whole different animal. Good luck.
realistic67:
Once I'm working that kind of obsession tends to fade away... problem is ... this is my work slow period before late summer