So, another year has come and gone. Been a long time since I posted here, a lot of the time it is a place to vent, where I know its safe. Prying eyes, they are everywhere. I know before I have talked about having the feeling of cheating, well I can honestly say, it hasn't gone away, nor have I done the deed either. I try to be an honest person. I try to be a somewhat virtuous person, though god only knows I have many vices. Does my wife make me unhappy? In general no. Have I talked to her about it? Yes, but it changes nothing. I know it is a physical thing, not a emotional thing I want. To be honest, there are times I think I never should have married at all in my life. But then I wouldn't have my 3 great kids. It is a dilemma I do not wish on anyone. I feel I am failing myself by having these feelings though for a long time they never entered the equation, never entered my mind.
To all the ladies who come by and happen upon this, you are all beautiful. Never doubt yourself, and enjoy life's crazy times and moments as best you can. Because you never know when that spectre of the negative side of life will rear its ugly head.
