razrbladeboi

My Suicide Bomb LOVE affair
The loss of
my interestwith this
world oddly coinsides
with my
LOVE at first thought
of beauty caused by
the crimson wave
of explosive devotion
a LOVE affair with
sheer panic
the one thing i
leave this place
my empty heart
painting these walls
My Suicide Bomb LOVE disaster

holy shit fuck ass all of it . i cant belive i went throught all that pain in 2 weeks its not fair .... .fuck alaska i hate it. this state is the shit stuck to canada's asshole . i wish i could be back to albuquerque right now . i would go to i.h.o.p or maybe frontier. i dont fuckin know all i know...
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i go home to abq in a few hours. i cant explain how much or long ive been waiting for this day to come . i miss everyone so much its recockulus .nothing can bring me down right now

so last night i played santa for like 20 kids at a christmas party wich wasnt that bad cuz now i have the next four days off from work
i thought it would be worse but the kids were ok and it was good to see them happy visiting santa
saturday night i will be back in albuquerque and im so ready to cut loose...
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9 days till i go back home i cant wait to see all the prople i miss so much

friends dont like to be called pistachio nuts.......or do they ?? What would u do if i called you one .

speaking from the bottom of a bottle ,

When all is done for the day i lie awake
and think about all i have acomplished ,all i have strived for ,all things considerd
how can i still be missing some thing .
hollow .....missing...
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so what do i do when its negative 25 degrees outside ...........FUCKING NOTHING ......ive never been so cold ......please help me keep warm

happy turkey day to all the sg people out there

what do you do when youve past up all that you wanted,defied all there expectations ?..........There is no more joy in my time here just lacking and seaching . every second closer to my end . i cant let me pass my self by ......i need to make amends with my self .

alone and dark in the cold this time is spent finding the...
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Imagine a time of pure feeling, of knowing where you were and who was who
a vison of yesterday pains the future say hello to tommorow
i wish my good bye had been more than nothing a bang rather than a bust
i wish for what i dont have i need to be home need the things that mattered the most the things that made...
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