Godsdammit, seriously, this is re-fucking-diculous.
I have so little money in the bank, and what's there is gone in seconds, a job that pays 13$ an hour and only gets me work a maximum of three nights a week, some considerable debt, and now I find out I can't even substitute teach for at least two and a half months?
I'm lonely, bored, broke, depressed, and every goddamn thing I try to start out here winds up biting me in the throat.
As far the lonliness goes, I've had the worst luck of my life getting a date since I've been out here, and that's saying something. And even if I were to find someone I was attracted to that seemed to share a modicum of that attraction with me, what the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't have enough money to do anything by myself, much less with another human being.
It's fairly rare that I get really depressed anymore. I tend to have little moments of introspection and then start seeing all the good things in my life and I become happy again and get rolling, but now? The little things that add up to making me happy keep receding, and the depressing shit just keeps pouring on.
Ugh. If anybody has any advice, words of wisdome, or just good, old-fashioned things to be happy about, nows the time to toss em' my way. Sorry if I continue to be maudlin' after, but I'll do my best to cheer up. I swear.
I have so little money in the bank, and what's there is gone in seconds, a job that pays 13$ an hour and only gets me work a maximum of three nights a week, some considerable debt, and now I find out I can't even substitute teach for at least two and a half months?
I'm lonely, bored, broke, depressed, and every goddamn thing I try to start out here winds up biting me in the throat.
As far the lonliness goes, I've had the worst luck of my life getting a date since I've been out here, and that's saying something. And even if I were to find someone I was attracted to that seemed to share a modicum of that attraction with me, what the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't have enough money to do anything by myself, much less with another human being.
It's fairly rare that I get really depressed anymore. I tend to have little moments of introspection and then start seeing all the good things in my life and I become happy again and get rolling, but now? The little things that add up to making me happy keep receding, and the depressing shit just keeps pouring on.
Ugh. If anybody has any advice, words of wisdome, or just good, old-fashioned things to be happy about, nows the time to toss em' my way. Sorry if I continue to be maudlin' after, but I'll do my best to cheer up. I swear.
maybe get a small reg coffee, stumble through the isles keeping to m'self
maybe sit and write lists for a while
lots of people doing the same thing... makes it a lil less like i'm alone
then to save money on food
get fixins for a giant pot of chili and then bag it up into individual servings and freeze em for lunches
(i got a really good 'cheap' recipe too
Cheap Bean Chili:
1-2 Giant cans of whole peeled tomatoes
1can tomatoe sauce
1sm can of tomatoe paste
1can redbeans
1can blackbeans
1can garbonzo beans
1BIG yellow onion chopped how you like it
2-3 cloved of garlic, or big shakes of powder
1-5 lil hot peppers of various assortments that you see in the fresh section (super cheap)
BIG shakes of chili powder or cayenne powder
season to taste and cook it all up for like an hour with careful stirs so ya dont make mash
Optionals:
meat or boca ground up
1 can of actual chili (sometimes cheaper than spices)
some chicken of beef bullion
chipolte powder
coronas n limes from the neighbor's tree
corn tortillas crisped up in some butter
sour cream, cheddar cheeze, chopped onions, and cheetoes -on top
chin up
i've been there/here before
often times a full warm belly and a good book is a great way to chase off the blues