Thank you everyone for the positive thoughts. I retract my former statement about not having good news...the good news is I am alive and have a beautiful family and I really shouldnt be such a downer lol
tactical:
I'm looking this change in outlook 
silenttype86:
Glad to see your changing your outlook. It can be hard sometimes, but its much healthier to focus on positives than negatives. Something I should remember to do for myself more often.