raynne

Work has been consuming my life and once in a while when I finally do get a day off, like I said I am consumed by sleep.

I have been lazy... I know and I am sorry. Hopefully you have not forgotten about me. I still love you all and miss you!

This will be quick but informative of my current state.

Work= consuming, retail, shift, work resulting in exhaustion

Thank you to all who wished me a happy birthday... now only if it had been happy. I organized a party over Facebook to which many people replied "Attending". Other than the few that gathered at my house for the pre-party (which were only 6 people including Geoff, myself, and my roommate) 1 person out of the many who said they would be attending showed up. Needless to say I spent the better part of the night pissed off and could not enjoy myself. I mean okay maybe I should have just sucked it up and tried to have a good time but really if I even have a doubt that I can't make it somewhere I put maybe attending or just say no. I wasn't pissed off about the people who said maybe attending or who didn't answer. I was angry at the people who said they would be there and clearly blew me off. The majority of them didn't even give me an explanation as to why they were no shows. One of my friends had food poisoning and one was in the ER... okay I get that but to say you were tired from getting drunk the night before... yeah thanks...(inset sarcastic tone) That's perfectly fine... no big deal that you missed my birthday... being hungover is a totally valid reason!

Anyway I have moved on... it just was a sucky night!

Halloween was pretty much a bust too. Geoff and I had no time to get costumes or anything ready and come Halloween night were tired so we just watched movies and snuggled which I was fine with. I can always be a virgin bride next year! he Friday before was fun although we showed up at bar with no costumes, we did get to hang out with old friends and I did get pretty drunk and those friends who missed my birthday bought all my drinks!

For the first time in god knows how many years I might spend Christmas at home in Ottawa which has major nostalgic and sentimental value to me. To this day my bed in my room at my house in Ottawa is still the comfiest bed I have ever slept in. Surprisingly I've had sex maybe once in that bed. My bed in my apartment however has seen many penises and cum shots! hahahaha

Unfortunately lately I have fallen into a dreaded routine however not one that ever stays the same. Maybe it's the seasons changing but I am feeling kind of down lately. Nothing is necessarily wrong but I'm in a funk, Maybe I'm bored and don't know what to do with myself.

I mean I have a job and am making ends meet (for right now anyway). I don't even mind my job. Too bad I am actually good at retail! Geoff and I are good... we did have our biggest fight a little while ago. It was one of the scariest moments of my life thinking I might lose him. That's all over now. Everything is okay and we are stronger than ever. I don't even like thinking about that night... We're good now and I love him and he loves me.

So stuff is okay. I think it is just me maybe wanting more from my life right now and feeling bad about that even though I know I shouldn't. Maybe it will pass too and tomorrow ( my day off ) I will wake up feeling better already!

Lastly, for all the birthdays I missed ( Nymph and boobzilla mainly) I am sorry and hope your special days were just as wonderful as you both are!

so much for the being a short blog! Tell me what's new with all of you!

Hugs and
Love Raynne