My Phoenix Moment is Coming

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You may or may not (probably not!) have noticed that my activity and participation on this wonderful site has dwindled dramatically. This is due to being slightly traumatised by events that have occurred over the course of the past year... which then led to me realising that I’d been put through some pretty heavy shit before that.

Anywhoooo, long story short; I wrote the following...
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edwinwanderfoot:
Damn that's heavy but looking back & moving forward like a Phoenix you will fly to new horzians & mend those wounds & be a better stronger woman then ever before good riddance to that toxic ex you derserve better *hugs*
bookcouple:
Girl, you’ve endured so much, but you are stronger than those guys who took advantage of you and stronger then your situation... you are beautiful and brave and wonderful!

Wednesday

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11 years.

132 months.

4,015 days.

10th October 2007 was the last time I cut myself, but it wasn’t the last time I would feel the need to.

I still fight the urges on an almost daily basis, I take each day as it comes and have been doing so ever since... I just never realised that I could look back and see those days...
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khirad:
I noticed. I started at age 14 and stopped in my early twenties.  I had a cutting specialist even (yes, guys sometimes do it too). Mine were on my arm, yours are - I, hate say classic on the thighs for girls - but you're not alone. Levenkron's book had a lot about this. To me, it made you more beautiful. My scars I would never get rid of. Every day, though I don't think about it, if someone brings it up, I don't care. It's an emotional battle scar (well, lot's of them), that I overcame. I wear my arm proudly. I never meant it that way, but I wouldn't get rid of my scars for anything.
rayabella:
@khirad mine cover all of my legs and my arms, (that’s where I started infact) and it’s the same for guys that I’ve known who have cut, there’s never been a specific place for any gender, just where the urge takes them and where they can hide it 😅 I think only specific areas are targeted when there are issues with those areas, but on the grand scale of those who cut, only a minority cut in that way. My scars are just a part of me now. I can’t remember my body without them..
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