*gulp*
Well, tonight I ride the horse... pretty fucking stupid considering my addictive personality, brokeness, and the overall "Ill do any drug once EXCEPT heroin, thats junkie shit" mindset Ive had until now. Ive been having a lot of trouble with life lately, and in response to it, Ive been under the influence for 99.9% of the last month... it sucks, i feel sick all the time... BUT i dropped a pant waist size yesterday. IN ONE DAY. which is like the greatest thing thats ever happened to me, and Id fucking live like this just to keep that happening. Its like a sign that the end of being disgusting is near, and that I could reach my weight goal, clean up, and be like Ive always wanted to be. Sure, its shallow. But the world is a shallow place... i just want to compensate a little.
Oh yeah, and someone actually replied to my last entry!!!
I didnt think anyone read these
Well, tonight I ride the horse... pretty fucking stupid considering my addictive personality, brokeness, and the overall "Ill do any drug once EXCEPT heroin, thats junkie shit" mindset Ive had until now. Ive been having a lot of trouble with life lately, and in response to it, Ive been under the influence for 99.9% of the last month... it sucks, i feel sick all the time... BUT i dropped a pant waist size yesterday. IN ONE DAY. which is like the greatest thing thats ever happened to me, and Id fucking live like this just to keep that happening. Its like a sign that the end of being disgusting is near, and that I could reach my weight goal, clean up, and be like Ive always wanted to be. Sure, its shallow. But the world is a shallow place... i just want to compensate a little.
Oh yeah, and someone actually replied to my last entry!!!
I didnt think anyone read these