Fuck I'm getting sick of this. For the past couple weeks I've really been wanting to go out to the bar and get shitfaced. I haven't done that in a long time. Tonight had the potential. A friend and I made plans to go out dancing, and then I've phoned her like five times today and there hans't been an answer once. Although I'm not mad at her, because she is the kind of person who would have a really good reason. I'm just frustrated.
And I'm getting so frustrated over this that even if the opportunity came to go out at this point, I wouldn't have fun with it. I know if I went and asked Kelly to go out with me he would... but I wouldn't have fun. He would be tired, not wanting to be there... and that would piss me off. I hate this shit. How come only a year ago going out was so common and we had so much fun at it? Now it seems like our average saturday is watching a movie and maybe having a drink or two. I'M SICK OF WATCHING MOVIES!
aw fuck... I'm half drunk while writing this... wasting a good buzz on fucking nothing... and now I'm getting seriously depressed over sitting in this apartment for another night. Absinthe is fun when you have a reason to be happy and giddy. But I've just learnt its really not the drink of choice when you're in a bad mood. It just makes shit fucking worse.
Fuck I need to make new friends or something. I love the ones I have but it seems like every time I want to go out and have fun they either have plans already or are completely unavailable. Having more would no doubt increase the amount of people I'd get to call before realizing I get to spend another night at home.
And I'm getting so frustrated over this that even if the opportunity came to go out at this point, I wouldn't have fun with it. I know if I went and asked Kelly to go out with me he would... but I wouldn't have fun. He would be tired, not wanting to be there... and that would piss me off. I hate this shit. How come only a year ago going out was so common and we had so much fun at it? Now it seems like our average saturday is watching a movie and maybe having a drink or two. I'M SICK OF WATCHING MOVIES!
aw fuck... I'm half drunk while writing this... wasting a good buzz on fucking nothing... and now I'm getting seriously depressed over sitting in this apartment for another night. Absinthe is fun when you have a reason to be happy and giddy. But I've just learnt its really not the drink of choice when you're in a bad mood. It just makes shit fucking worse.
Fuck I need to make new friends or something. I love the ones I have but it seems like every time I want to go out and have fun they either have plans already or are completely unavailable. Having more would no doubt increase the amount of people I'd get to call before realizing I get to spend another night at home.
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But anyways...you remember Kim...Wrightson...well I got a good one for you. She's still going out with that boy Jessie...the native. And she's going to be having a baby in June or July I can't remember I think it's July. Yup that's right she's pregnant.....