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I feel so... calm

Not the "Oh, I'm so relaxed calm". Not the "calm before the storm" type calm. Just... calm.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep. I just spent the whole day like I was hovering, not walking. I'd like to say I feel zen, but I know there's a lot more below the surface. I'm above the tempest. I'm not even sure what I'm doing here. I know it all sounds negative, but it's really not. I'm just very neutral and objective. That can't be a bad thing, can it? I mean... I'm not overanalyzing, I'm not down on myself, I'm not anxious (though I have yet to try my inhaler again, kinda worried about that one).

I'm just... me. With the volume turnd all the way down.