well I finally made the move to Mattoon, Ill be starting school this Monday and while I am excited I am also nervous at the same time. New school, dont really know anyone.. plus another chic shit on me right before I moved down here.. no big suprise there, I have come accustomed to it. I am living with my friend from high school down here, we have our own house and two dogs... a bachelor pad of sorts for now... he is the Assistant states attorney for coles county, so if you are around and get into some trouble get ahold of me!!!
I have been doing some reflecting on my life and how I have gotten to where I am now... it has been a long road with major obstacles and pit falls along the way, and some how Im still here alive to tell about it... but it has opened my eyes to actually how strong of a person I really am... I have been to and through hell and back had my heart broken too many times to count, and gone through several deaths both family and really close friends.. and yet through it all I am still me, the same person I have always been, funny, loving, laid back, honest, and strong willed. Of course everything I have gone through has affected me in certain ways it has only made me realize that I need to continue living life to the fullest... with the deaths of friends and family teaching me that you never know when your time will come, to not dwell on the past or you could find yourself stuck there... even after all the relationships and heart breaks I still wear a piece of my heart on my sleeve and still go iin to relationships giving everything that I can, because whats the point of getting in to one if you dont? The Marine Corps made a man out of me, and i remember being in and always talking about how I couldnt wait to get out and how tired of the BS I was... wow if I knew then what I know now i think I may have stayed in... It also opened my eyes to the world, I was able to travel to almost every where I ever wanted to, I got to meet amazing people and do and see amazing things, obviously with the good came the bad part of it... going to Iraq 4 times in 5 years but to be completely honest I even miss bieng there at times... you will never really know someone unless you have looked death in the face with them and some of my greatest memories are from the sands of Iraq.... I dont know Im kind of rambling... anyway from here on out it's one foot in front of the other Im looking to the future and turning a new leaf, finish school maybe find a real woman while Im in the midst of that and settle down and start a family...
I have been doing some reflecting on my life and how I have gotten to where I am now... it has been a long road with major obstacles and pit falls along the way, and some how Im still here alive to tell about it... but it has opened my eyes to actually how strong of a person I really am... I have been to and through hell and back had my heart broken too many times to count, and gone through several deaths both family and really close friends.. and yet through it all I am still me, the same person I have always been, funny, loving, laid back, honest, and strong willed. Of course everything I have gone through has affected me in certain ways it has only made me realize that I need to continue living life to the fullest... with the deaths of friends and family teaching me that you never know when your time will come, to not dwell on the past or you could find yourself stuck there... even after all the relationships and heart breaks I still wear a piece of my heart on my sleeve and still go iin to relationships giving everything that I can, because whats the point of getting in to one if you dont? The Marine Corps made a man out of me, and i remember being in and always talking about how I couldnt wait to get out and how tired of the BS I was... wow if I knew then what I know now i think I may have stayed in... It also opened my eyes to the world, I was able to travel to almost every where I ever wanted to, I got to meet amazing people and do and see amazing things, obviously with the good came the bad part of it... going to Iraq 4 times in 5 years but to be completely honest I even miss bieng there at times... you will never really know someone unless you have looked death in the face with them and some of my greatest memories are from the sands of Iraq.... I dont know Im kind of rambling... anyway from here on out it's one foot in front of the other Im looking to the future and turning a new leaf, finish school maybe find a real woman while Im in the midst of that and settle down and start a family...