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It was a huge mistake
I knew it would happen
You are too alike
Too pretty, Too easy going, Too smart
What interest you also interest her
So now your interest is her
I saw how she caught your eye
How your preferred her voice and laugh over mine
All your attention focused on her
How could you not ?
For what I know of you , shes perfect for you
She isnt anything like me
Sinking back into myself
I took what I could get
And tried to convince myself that you would be prone to her charms
Realizing that she would be better for you
That you could be happy with her
That you could prefer her over me
My nails dig into the palms of my hands
I bit my lower lip and curse under my smile
Making a fist to hold back the tears
Overcomed in this moment and my first instinct is to cry
Youre so far away from me now
What can I do?
I lost your phone number and I cant remember the way back to your house
Youve gone too far now
I dont know how to get in touch with you
When that all I want
I miss your hands
But I know you are holding hers tonight
It was a mistake, I knew it from the start
Before you even saw her
I knew you would love her
And when you reach for her
I want to break your arms
The sight is like being shot in the knees
Like being stapled all up and down on my arms
And I want to claw my eyelids shut when I see that picture
This would be bearable if she was a stranger
Ill be the stranger
Ill leave you to your sudden fascination
While I go off and fake it with someone new, less complex but less interesting
This is the error I always seem to make
Once I notice the glimmer its not long before everyone else does
And then I lose my shine
Once when we were lovers you told me no one saw you
You called yourself dull
But I saw your flaws and found them quirky
And I adored you for them all
And as I continued to gawk at you
You held my vision so well
I didnt even see it coming
Didnt even notice when other sets of eyes began to notice
The light you didnt even know you had
And its a brilliant blue
Youve gone and made me poetic now
You must really be something to inspire words
Something, indeed you are, but what it is exactly
A loss cause is the best description that comes to mind
We were never happy, you could never make me happy
A need a token or a charm to remind me of this
If I had that then this couldve all been avoided
And this wouldnt even exist
And I wouldnt feel the need to get this all down on paper
Where you were or how youre doing wouldnt be daily questions picking at my brain
Theres rivers and lakes around us now
Buildings and skies,
far too much chaos and noise to ever have a common conversation
.it use to be so effortless
hopeless, hopeful?, disappointment
It weaves back and forth
She sees you now, sees what I saw
Ive fallen out of your sight, its been the way for so long now
I wouldnt even know what to say to now,
If placed face to face with you in a empty room
My mind and heart would be running
My mouth forgot the English language
.Id probably start crying, I can always rely on my eyes to betray me
Id lie to hide those traitor tears, I could never confess to this out loud
That it still lingers and strings
To see you with her
And that Ive fallen out of view