so i had a good and bad day today.
i booked my flights to go see my grandma down in victoria. she was so happy to know i was coming down to visit her. i havent seen her for nearly a year and its usually only when she comes up here that i see her. she wont be too happy to see me tho when i get down there. the last time she saw me she only knew of one of the stars on my wrist and nothing else (cos it was all hidden). now i have things in my face, big holes in my ears and like HEAPS (in her opinion) of tattoos. she will be dissapointed in me. oh well. ill try my best to hide everything as much as i can.
i then went shopping for new clothes and i am so happy with everything i bought. i got some awesome jeans that i think look really good on me. i also got some new tops and i got a new dvd, The Pest. hahah, its the lamest dvd ever but i dont care i loved it i used to watch it all the time when i was younger and it was only $10! bargain.
i then decided to clean out all my old stuff out of my cupboards, and have chucked out about 3 bags of shitty clothes i have been holding onto for years just in case i need it. but like after 3 years of not needing to wear it, i guess i dont really need it.
i also decided to clear some people out of my life. one being someone who has been using me for 8 years. the other being someone i have had a crush on for about 4 or so months. i have basically woken up to the fact that nothing will ever happen with this person and to try and start getting over it i am not going to talk to this person anymore. maybe i am just stupid, maybe i have just been thinking about stuff too much, making a big deal about nothing, but i am really hurting right now. i really dont know what i saw in this person but maybe i was just blinded by the fact i thought he might of liked me. who knows, i am so retard with that crap, probably never liked me at all. maybe i just fucked things up by being so scared of actually letting someone get close to me and like letting these walls down that i always have up. anyway im going to keep telling myself that i really dont care anymore. its not true but maybe it might help.
i booked my flights to go see my grandma down in victoria. she was so happy to know i was coming down to visit her. i havent seen her for nearly a year and its usually only when she comes up here that i see her. she wont be too happy to see me tho when i get down there. the last time she saw me she only knew of one of the stars on my wrist and nothing else (cos it was all hidden). now i have things in my face, big holes in my ears and like HEAPS (in her opinion) of tattoos. she will be dissapointed in me. oh well. ill try my best to hide everything as much as i can.
i then went shopping for new clothes and i am so happy with everything i bought. i got some awesome jeans that i think look really good on me. i also got some new tops and i got a new dvd, The Pest. hahah, its the lamest dvd ever but i dont care i loved it i used to watch it all the time when i was younger and it was only $10! bargain.
i then decided to clean out all my old stuff out of my cupboards, and have chucked out about 3 bags of shitty clothes i have been holding onto for years just in case i need it. but like after 3 years of not needing to wear it, i guess i dont really need it.
i also decided to clear some people out of my life. one being someone who has been using me for 8 years. the other being someone i have had a crush on for about 4 or so months. i have basically woken up to the fact that nothing will ever happen with this person and to try and start getting over it i am not going to talk to this person anymore. maybe i am just stupid, maybe i have just been thinking about stuff too much, making a big deal about nothing, but i am really hurting right now. i really dont know what i saw in this person but maybe i was just blinded by the fact i thought he might of liked me. who knows, i am so retard with that crap, probably never liked me at all. maybe i just fucked things up by being so scared of actually letting someone get close to me and like letting these walls down that i always have up. anyway im going to keep telling myself that i really dont care anymore. its not true but maybe it might help.
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when you heading to victoria.?..im going down to melbourne in early may for the tattoo convention..(fuckin yay)...but im also visiting my opa down there..he doesnt approve of tatts much either...but thats the way she goes..
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