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Thanks again for all the birthday wishes. This birthday was arguably the WORST in birthday history...

I had to leave Slavewire all alone in London (save for his friends...)

My grandpa was to have an angioplasty but they couldn't reslove the problem so he needs a triple bipass and then he had a stroke at the hospital...

My sister needed to have a biopsy done because of an irregular pap.

My dad's going in for surgery...gah! TODAY!!!

The only family members that got me a card were my dad and my sister.

I have/had a minor yeast infection. I've never had one before and hope to FUCK that I don't ever again... I'm going to start wearing lots of skirts without panties...

I HAVE NO (local) FRIENDS! So when I was all depressed an shit, I had to call my work and talk to a co-worker/friend, Corrin, and she was kind enough to patiently listen while I akwardly cried on the phone for 5 minutes (she did get me flowers though, but I can't help thinking they were more out of pity than anything...)

And now I've been trying to work up the guts to ask my sister to move back in with me and finally I did yesterday and she haltingly told me that she'd consider it, which means that she's just too kind to tell me "no".

*Sigh*

I am fucking hating life right now. Next thing my car will break down again and the PHENOMINAL ammount of cash in my bank account (a whopping $1900, just DAYS before I get paid!!) will turn out to be some nasty fluke and all my budgeting will have been for shit, my grandpa will die in surgery, my sister will tell me that she not only doesn't want to move in with me but she never wants to talk to me again (which would KILL me because she's really my only friend that I see on any continual basis), my fiance will tell me that he doesn't love me and that he doesn't want to move here and be with me, that it's just too much hassle...

I can only do so much before I'm forced to commit myself to the state. Meh...





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