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nice to see you back.

As for dudes showing there bodies, there is a whole group for it. Which i happen to be the group owner off.
Its called suicideboys and can be found here

I think everyone got that.....lol

Check out clubtix.net for stuff. I would also, just check out Smartbar, Spybar, and Vision websites.

I will probably leak some of the art work when I get it completed. I'm trying to decide on style and medium. I'm thinking fuzzy detail in colored pencil. But who knows.

That's awesome! I was looking into that job. It sounds really awesome but with the condition of my truck which is my winter vehicle I don't think I'd be able to do the commute. I live on the south side of chicago so it'd be about a 1.5 hour commute. The commute wouldn't be bad if my truck ran on all 6 of it's cylinders but it's over 10 years old and just meant for winter, so it's condition has really deteriorated.

Thanks for looking out for me though man. I really appreciate it. I hope it all works out for you in Northbrook.

As for Hockey I'm not sure if they're looking for more players. I'll keep you in mind though if we are. It's just rat hockey so it's basically a whoever comes hops on a team. We're just trying to have a prebuilt team so we can win some. We haven't played in quite a while because we're all mostly broke and missing equipment.

Why not the Sox? I'm a fan, I live like a mile away from the stadium, I don't really think it needs much of an explanation.

And thanks.

That's awesome man, I always try to better myself and help others do the same. I look forward to seeing how it goes for you.

And thanks for the welcome back. We do have the two greatest teams, Bears and Blackhawks! No worries about the lack of helping me with a job. I'll figure something out.

I did it off my own back because of my depression, I had gone the meds route before. I guess there came a point when I started not wanting to wake up or to just let go of the wheel when driving that I thought I had better do something.

I got lucky too, I googled to find someone and he is perfect for me. Way it goes I guess.

Looking back I was really fucking ill at the time, I couldn't interact with anyone and I was having anxiety attacks. It didn't cure my depression, I guess it helped me to understand myself and make a decision that I don't want to and don't have to be in that place.

My depression pretty much stemmed from not recognising my feelings, let alone dealing with them. I surpressed all emotion from guilt to joy and sadness.

I never even contemplated just how much of my life it affected, I used to do things without realising which were pretty negative.

I went back into therapy cos loads of bad shit happened, I did it to make sure I didn't end up in that place again and dealt with it.
Like you, I find it difficult to really sit down and talk to anyone about my emotions, but then I am so much better at it now than I was.

I'd always recomend anyone struggling to deal with feelings to seek help, if only to be told "you're gonna be fine - its normal"
I'df also say do a bit of research into the types of therapy first, CBT or transactional analysis. The first session is normally about getting to know eachother and talking through what to expect and whether there would be any benefit in it.