It's been terribly cold the past week, I hate the cold. Which is weird since I lived on the east coast until I was 9; and winter was my favorite season back then. I loved going sledding, having snowball fights, jumping into huge piles of snow, and the way my nose would be so red after a day of playing outside. As I moved to texas and got older, winter slowly became a time of being anti-social and depressed. Now? I also ache. I ache so bad. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally.
Seasonal affective disorder affects me when winter rolls around. I just don't feel like myself; and I still have days where I feel absolutely fine, and I'll have those days where I'm just fightin through it and I just look fine. And since the car accident last year, winter makes those injuries ache more so, so I just feel too drained to want do the things I normally do. It's a struggle though, one I'm trying to be more prepared for this year. I want to find more distractions or better ways of dealing with it. Luckily time flies, and spring will be back and I'll feel like myself again<3
Things haven't been bad lately though, they've actually been pretty good. I just am slowly feeling more and more not all myself.
I'm going to dye my hair turquoise on Wednesday! It's been like, 6 months since I last dyed my hair so that's long enough in my book haha. And next weekend is the burlesque show here in san Antonio, I'm pretty excited about that. I also got my ping pong paddles from Q's mom's house so I can start to distract myself with ping pong again. Next step Is getting a pogo stick, the one I had broke a year or two ago /: I like distracting myself with things like ping pong and jumping on the pogo stick; reminds me of times when I was younger and things were more carefree.
I think I'll end this with two questions: how do you distract yourself when you're not feeling like you usually do? & what reminds you of your childhood days?
Good Vibes always <3
