I'll start this blog off with the next piece of SG homework that @missy & @rambo gave out. "What inspired you to become a SuicideGirl?" This is what i had put on my application when they asked why we wanted to be an SG:
"I've always thought SuicideGirls had such a confidence and beauty about them. I've always loved tattoos and piercings since I was younger and the way these women portray themselves is more than just a bunch of alternative nude women, it was beautiful art and they all embraced that "fierce woman" from within. I wasn't always happy with my self-image, and in the last year I've found that "fierce woman" i had trapped away and to let that shine through in the form of being nude and showing the art on one's body is the most liberating thing a person could experience. Ever since I found about SuicideGirls when i was younger, (at first the nudity didnt even phase me, i was so hypnotized by all these beautiful tattooed/pierced/dyed women who break the "norm" of being a model, the nudity is now just another add on to the beauty of it all) I've always dreamed of being a SuicideGirl; and to finally go ahead & apply is a taste of that dream. I want to be a SuicideGirl because it's not just nude art, it's a lifestyle and it's a lifestyle that has made me feel so..well, me!"
But now i have a little more to add to that. Back in 8th grade when livejournal was all big, i had come across some photos of @quinne & @zui. Which led me to seeing what public stuff i could find on the SG site back then. I was obsessed, the whole alternative look. Tattoos, piercings, hair dye, you name it. It was also the time where i finally started coming into my own and not being afraid of what made me "weird." SuicideGirls basically influenced my life, and is a huge part of who I am today. I wanted to be a part of what influenced my life so heavily. But what made me actually APPLY? My boyfriend, Quentin. Last year, a few months before i had won my free 1 year membership from the social media scavenger hunt contest they had...I would sit there, looking at SG, saying how badly i wish i could be a part of that community. Well Q knew it was my dream, and how much i loved the community from what i had seen of it. He told me that if i didn't at least apply now, I'd definitely regret it when i got older. And he was right, so I decided to apply. And honestly, whether i had gone pink or not; it wouldn't have changed the love and respect i have for SuicideGirls and what it stands for. Being an actual SuicideGirl is just a really awesome bonus to the family i've gained<3 All these amazing, confident women. The ladies of SG inspired me back then, and still continue to inspire me<3
"What some people think makes us strange or weird we think is what makes us beautiful."That alone got me through 8th grade year and my highschool years. Live weird, love weird.<3
OKAY GREAT NEWS TOO! I saw my laywer the other day, and guess who's going to start settling soon!? when my lawyer told me how much he's going to try and get me, i smiled so big. it was a much larger amount than i would have expected, and if i actually get that amount...my life is going to change for the better. new home, new car, traveling, spoiling my daughter, tattoos. oh my goodness. and i could see it by april or may! so around my birthday possibly! that would be amazing. and things would look up immensely!<3 Also, i was telling Q if the $ comes in before june and tickets for Electric Forest are still for sale...well...we may be going to EF this year :) Which will be fun, because i had an amazing time last year working it...so taking Q this year to have fun the whole time? we could use something like that<3 I also plan on donating about $2000 of whatever my settlement money comes out to the company my dad works for, DeafLink. (if you live in san antonio, my dad was actually on the news last month talking about some restaurant that is making it easier to communicate with deaf people)
No photo dump this time. Today is beautiful, as the rest of the week will be<3 I'm going to spend some time soaking up the sunshine<3
GOOD VIBES LOVES ALWAYS!
annnnnd letters will be sent next week! still need some stamps D: lol.
-Ramen
