ralexraulf

kierra, i'm not proud


my eyes don't always
follow my mind
there are lots of pretty girls
that me and tv
see and want to
well you know

i'm not proud
that sometimes my eyes
are not stable when i say i love you
my hands on your hips
squeezing you
squeeze you
so you don't see that my eyes are open
that when we kiss
my eyes are open
i don't look at your face and
i'm not
good or proud
that i can't look into your eyes
when i say i you
look
i'm not proud that i am me
and
when I wake up and your eyes are closed
you're sleeping and i'm awake
i get up and turn on the tv
because i can't sleep and
i'm really just mad
that you want to be engaged when
i'm not really ready for you
but
here we go anyway

i'm not proud that when i say i love you
i sometimes mean it
so i stay around with you
that when i doubt you
you're not too proud to beg
but baby i ain't proud
that I am me and tv