rainwolfkin

well I'd scheduled a lunch/meeting with the more easy-going of the 2 bosses, but when I turned up the other more hard-assed one, who I don't get on with, was there too.

Basicly I don't think they like me much on a personal level (that's OK, it's mutual) as I'm not the kiss-ass company man, but I've consistantly delivered, have more filming experience than almost anyone else in the company and the clients like me, often becoming friends... they need me more than I need them etc.

But over the last few months, they've been fucking me around, promising one thing doing another, taking projects off me... basicly my attitude/response has been angry and I just asked what plans they had because they weren't really using me and what was I doing there.

I didn't really expect to get fired unless it got heated and I or they said something we'd regret. Though to be honest part of me wished they would as it would be the kick up the arse I probably need to really make this going independent thing happen. Of course the whole time the last several months I'm secretly pitching and approaching for independent gigs, but it's a lean time in UK film-making and they know a lot of people.. so I have to be careful.

Ultimately I'm not worried (I could probably walk into any of the 3 or 4 major rivals and get a job tomorrow), but I am fucking frustrated.

Anyway the meeting could have gone better, 2 against 1 it started as largely a criticism of me, but I did stump them several times along the lines of:
'We're not happy with when you did/said this...'
"well that's because you did this... and at the time you said this..."
'oh yes.... sorry - our mistake, that was wrong of us'

ultimately no real resolution, so I don't know where it's headed. Keep taking the money for the moment while I plot secretly, take the holiday soon that they owe me and then with any luck resign; feels like the plan for now

jeez what an essay... how you doin'?

as sailor would say "rockin' good news!"