Well, work was half-way decent today. Except for the lil round of worshiping the porcilen god towards the end. I should know better not to eat those damn corn dogs from Dan & Rays!
I got to see a good friend of mine for a bit, as I was in taxi mode again
Which she knows I am damn well happy to do. I'm looking forward to chillin with her again.
I did get to hang out with a good friend oif mine tongiht, which is good. I think he needed it. I'm so not used to seeing him so stressed out, and it bothers me. The two things I could do for him, my damn medical issues are sort of holding me back at the moment and it's pissing me off. One would do me a world of good right about now..which is hiling. But I simply don't trust my body right now to go out. <--makes me angry!!!! The other is if I could step up more at work. I'm so struggling right now it's driving me crazy. I am making headway, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel...IF I can just stop f*king passing out and having issues.
Speaking of issues, as luck would have it...something new on my plate. It's small, but it's still something I need to think about..as if I don't have enough shit on my medical plate. I'm hoping it's just some minor reaction to something, but with some of the funky virus's I've gotten in the past, I never know what to expect. <--insert xanax here
While talking to Jason today, I sorta had an enlighting moment, as it where. I know this thought has crossed my mind before, but never truly hit home like it did tonight for somereason. Bottom line, some of the medical issues ARE going to be with me for the rest of my life. I need to be able to keep my shit together, regardless of medical issues. I need to adapt to that aspect. If I don't do something I am supposed to do, everytime I have one issue or another, I will not survive. Basically I need to buckle up and deal. Which is why I need to get into counseling. And I damn well better have attempted to make an appointment by the end of business day on Friday, or I feel the verbal wrath of a certain someone coming my way.
Off to bed...or maybe a lil porn watchin....hell, I's got a laptop, why not both
I got to see a good friend of mine for a bit, as I was in taxi mode again
Which she knows I am damn well happy to do. I'm looking forward to chillin with her again.
I did get to hang out with a good friend oif mine tongiht, which is good. I think he needed it. I'm so not used to seeing him so stressed out, and it bothers me. The two things I could do for him, my damn medical issues are sort of holding me back at the moment and it's pissing me off. One would do me a world of good right about now..which is hiling. But I simply don't trust my body right now to go out. <--makes me angry!!!! The other is if I could step up more at work. I'm so struggling right now it's driving me crazy. I am making headway, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel...IF I can just stop f*king passing out and having issues.
Speaking of issues, as luck would have it...something new on my plate. It's small, but it's still something I need to think about..as if I don't have enough shit on my medical plate. I'm hoping it's just some minor reaction to something, but with some of the funky virus's I've gotten in the past, I never know what to expect. <--insert xanax here
While talking to Jason today, I sorta had an enlighting moment, as it where. I know this thought has crossed my mind before, but never truly hit home like it did tonight for somereason. Bottom line, some of the medical issues ARE going to be with me for the rest of my life. I need to be able to keep my shit together, regardless of medical issues. I need to adapt to that aspect. If I don't do something I am supposed to do, everytime I have one issue or another, I will not survive. Basically I need to buckle up and deal. Which is why I need to get into counseling. And I damn well better have attempted to make an appointment by the end of business day on Friday, or I feel the verbal wrath of a certain someone coming my way.
Off to bed...or maybe a lil porn watchin....hell, I's got a laptop, why not both