ragingwhore42

well the last 2 days have been a series of ups and downs-each one a little more intense than the next. i'm not sure how to feel about anything right now. but then again when am i? i have to quit neglecting my 16 other journals-which i was rude enough to not even go back to when i had no sg. i don't know. i'm thinking maybe i should just close them all except for my lj-and update that when something big happens-or maybe even just start posting these entries there. bah-i quit. i've been quitting too much lately. i'm trying to not smoke so much. i've been looking into getting a vaporizer so i don't have an asthma attack and die trying to get stoned. i just read dia's latest entry and all i can say is wow. i would love to ber able to put things so beautifully-or maybe messed up. i just wish that the things i wrote invoked such insane images i guess. i don't really know. i would love to sic her on herpesboy-the forever bitter pansy that's mad at the world cause i'm the slut and he's the one with herpes. hehehehehe-i know i'm a bad person. good stuff. i'm tired-tired-tired of waiting. i think i should try to go to sleep or get the boy to let me paint his toenails pink. it may never happen. he doesn't want his bitches to think he's gay i guess. how rude!! this is too long. i give up.