Been outta commission for a few days everyone... Our internet at my place here has been down due to our server being on the fritz. I should be back now for most of the next few days... or at least until our real server gets fixed.
Hope you are all doin well. Nothing much going on really lately.... just a lot of irrational thinking and feeling. I hate being scared and i hate letting my brain get the better of me. Seems like ive been cursed with not only an intelligent mind.. but one that also enjoys tormenting me...
Oh well. I guess ill just have to keep on fighting the shit my head dumps on top of me. If not... who knows....
Hope to see you guys around. Later on.
J
Hope you are all doin well. Nothing much going on really lately.... just a lot of irrational thinking and feeling. I hate being scared and i hate letting my brain get the better of me. Seems like ive been cursed with not only an intelligent mind.. but one that also enjoys tormenting me...
Oh well. I guess ill just have to keep on fighting the shit my head dumps on top of me. If not... who knows....
Hope to see you guys around. Later on.
J
i may not know details of anything thats "getting the better of your intelligent mind," but thats not what is necessary at this point. last night assured me that we are 2 of the same mold and that i can read you as well as you can read me. its a shame that we cant take our own advice.
that there are things and emotions that we both have absolutely no capability of feeling, especially when it comes to an outlet for panic and distress. we are unable to focus on ourselves and putting ourselves first.
you have always been a vital part in my sanity while im here in a strange land. checking on you last night after your chugging from the Patron bottle, taking off your shoes, letting you know that "i've been there too" is nothing but honesty and genuine adoration that i have for you. you mean so much to me, and seeing you ache makes ME ache. simply because we ARE both from the same mold. i know you would do that same for me.
i need you to believe that i am here for you. that my thoughts are linear with yours, and whatever you may need at whatever time... i'm more than willing and capable to offer you whatever it is that your heart desires.
remember: "two lost souls swimmin' in a fish bowl, year after year..."
all my love,
niki lee.
and from me...my favorite quote that I don't know how to spell...
"Que ser a' ser a' " Whatever will be will be.
Good times last night.
talk to ya later
che and dave