Allow me to start this off by thanking everyone who has had sympathy for me. I am sorry that i have not been able to personally give to my thanx to each and everyone out there. I have not had alot of free time for the internet. I have not had alot of free time in general.
This new job is starting to take its toll. We are allowed 180 hours per week to divide up among 2 managers (requiring 50 hours each) and 10 others staff members. Im getting ready to either kill someone or fire someone, maybe both. Not only that but i gotta deal with fucking rich snob ass customers who will refuse to pay a balance of $1.05. Its a FUCKING DOLLAR. You can go to your car and find that much money sitting in your ash tray. .
Next on the list.... My friends are being dicks. Now usually if one of my friends decides to be a dick, ill just tell them to go fuck themself and be on my merry way. But there is a problem with that, im starting to run outta friends. So many have stabbed me in the back that im running thin. I need to make more friends. But not like ass whole friends, like REAL friends. All of my real close friends are away at college. The people around here are more like social friends. Its nice to see them, but im not gonna rearrange my entire work schedule just to spend 10 min with them. I'm not sure what to do, but i can say that if they keep acting like this, its not gonna be a heart breaking decision.
Now for my only positive for the day... I won $150 at poker tonight. Also, abyssia and myself will be hanging out on tuesday and taking insane pictures. I will be sure to post them.
Now, being that my mood sways back and forth between good and bad, its causing huge onsets of depression. My medicine is not helping me out at all. And when my depression is around, my schizophrenia starts to come back. I've already started to hear things that arent there. This is not fun. Whatever you guys do, dont ever be schizo. I cant wait till i start seeing things that arent there. That will be tasty.
Im done for now, things will look better in the morning...
cheers,
~matt~
This new job is starting to take its toll. We are allowed 180 hours per week to divide up among 2 managers (requiring 50 hours each) and 10 others staff members. Im getting ready to either kill someone or fire someone, maybe both. Not only that but i gotta deal with fucking rich snob ass customers who will refuse to pay a balance of $1.05. Its a FUCKING DOLLAR. You can go to your car and find that much money sitting in your ash tray. .
Next on the list.... My friends are being dicks. Now usually if one of my friends decides to be a dick, ill just tell them to go fuck themself and be on my merry way. But there is a problem with that, im starting to run outta friends. So many have stabbed me in the back that im running thin. I need to make more friends. But not like ass whole friends, like REAL friends. All of my real close friends are away at college. The people around here are more like social friends. Its nice to see them, but im not gonna rearrange my entire work schedule just to spend 10 min with them. I'm not sure what to do, but i can say that if they keep acting like this, its not gonna be a heart breaking decision.
Now for my only positive for the day... I won $150 at poker tonight. Also, abyssia and myself will be hanging out on tuesday and taking insane pictures. I will be sure to post them.
Now, being that my mood sways back and forth between good and bad, its causing huge onsets of depression. My medicine is not helping me out at all. And when my depression is around, my schizophrenia starts to come back. I've already started to hear things that arent there. This is not fun. Whatever you guys do, dont ever be schizo. I cant wait till i start seeing things that arent there. That will be tasty.
Im done for now, things will look better in the morning...
cheers,
~matt~
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hope your doing ok at the mo
and how have you been?