Sometimes I feel like a 13yr old girl other times a 50 yr old woman. I have never felt like my age and sometimes I forget that I'm 20; it sounds weird in my head to say that I'm 20. but numbers have never been important to me, they are just another thing to control, label, and divide us up.
Trying to figure yourself out is really hard. I keep wanting to chart it all out, write it out on paper, to grid it out... put it in a logical order, its funny to me that I hate math and don't understand it and yet I try to put everything into an equation to find an answer. My brain tries to put every action into a cause and effect type thing to simplify it but condense all the outside factors into one answer for each individual thing. Which makes the whole thing overly complex in itself...
People live inside their own heads too much... we over think, rationalize, and try to categorize everything. I know that I do... but I'm changing myself for the better here!
hmm dunno where I'm going with this. Just some more of my pondering I guess. all a bit random haha I might expound on these musings later.
Trying to figure yourself out is really hard. I keep wanting to chart it all out, write it out on paper, to grid it out... put it in a logical order, its funny to me that I hate math and don't understand it and yet I try to put everything into an equation to find an answer. My brain tries to put every action into a cause and effect type thing to simplify it but condense all the outside factors into one answer for each individual thing. Which makes the whole thing overly complex in itself...
People live inside their own heads too much... we over think, rationalize, and try to categorize everything. I know that I do... but I'm changing myself for the better here!
hmm dunno where I'm going with this. Just some more of my pondering I guess. all a bit random haha I might expound on these musings later.
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When i was younger i thought that i acted older than my age.
Now im in my (late) thirtys i still feel the same as i did at twenty