Ok so I feel like I'm getting ready to whine up a storm here and I hate to whine or sound whiny but I need to get it out...
This has been the hardest semester I've had. I was taking 18 credit hours of classes Gen. Bio I, Astronomy, Math, Painting I, and Intro to Computers (which is split into two classes each with it's own separate work). I had to drop the Bio because on top of all the other classes it was just too much and I got the bad Bio instructor this brought me down to 14 credit hours which is the least amount I've ever had. I thought that things would be a lot more manageable but the amount of work these classes are giving out is a little ridiculous but maybe I'm just being a whiny bitch here
I knew full well that the astronomy was going to a lot of work and that it is the hardest class to take here next to calculus but I was not expecting the rest of them to be SO consuming... I don't sleep, eat when I can, and I have no outside fun-- that means it's just me, homework, class, and work + dealing with parents that are more like bad roommates. I don't hang out with anyone, I don't go for walks, no video games, no reading, hell I can't even sit on my porch because I only have time for homework... even now sitting here writing this blog I should be studying more for my Astronomy midterm.
I feel sick, stressed, dangerously bored, and ready to just give up or not care anymore. I feel like I've lost sight of my goals or that they seem stupid/impossible now. All I want to do is just move away, get a job that will pay my bills, spend my free time making art, hanging out with people, traveling, seeing sights, just living a simple life. I don't require any extravagances or attention..... just want to live and live the way that feels right to me not like this, it feels bad, I feel bad. Nothing ever changes here it always stays the same my days are so similar that I forget when I did what and what day of the week it is. It doesn't matter, I'll be doing the same thing the next day anyways... and I know I'm complaining a whole lot here but it's worse to just let this fester in my brain right?
I just wanna know when the fun of college that I heard so much about in HS is supposed to happen because to be honest this is worse than being in HS.
Again I'm terribly sorry for blasting my discontent and unhappiness here at you guys... I know I know shut up girl, quit complaining, do your work, it's only as hard as you make it, the list goes on and on but it doesn't help.
I'm not looking for a pat on the head and a it'll be alright it's just a rough patch and you'll get through it... I don't know what I'm looking for in writing this...
ho hum.
This has been the hardest semester I've had. I was taking 18 credit hours of classes Gen. Bio I, Astronomy, Math, Painting I, and Intro to Computers (which is split into two classes each with it's own separate work). I had to drop the Bio because on top of all the other classes it was just too much and I got the bad Bio instructor this brought me down to 14 credit hours which is the least amount I've ever had. I thought that things would be a lot more manageable but the amount of work these classes are giving out is a little ridiculous but maybe I'm just being a whiny bitch here
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I knew full well that the astronomy was going to a lot of work and that it is the hardest class to take here next to calculus but I was not expecting the rest of them to be SO consuming... I don't sleep, eat when I can, and I have no outside fun-- that means it's just me, homework, class, and work + dealing with parents that are more like bad roommates. I don't hang out with anyone, I don't go for walks, no video games, no reading, hell I can't even sit on my porch because I only have time for homework... even now sitting here writing this blog I should be studying more for my Astronomy midterm.
I feel sick, stressed, dangerously bored, and ready to just give up or not care anymore. I feel like I've lost sight of my goals or that they seem stupid/impossible now. All I want to do is just move away, get a job that will pay my bills, spend my free time making art, hanging out with people, traveling, seeing sights, just living a simple life. I don't require any extravagances or attention..... just want to live and live the way that feels right to me not like this, it feels bad, I feel bad. Nothing ever changes here it always stays the same my days are so similar that I forget when I did what and what day of the week it is. It doesn't matter, I'll be doing the same thing the next day anyways... and I know I'm complaining a whole lot here but it's worse to just let this fester in my brain right?
I just wanna know when the fun of college that I heard so much about in HS is supposed to happen because to be honest this is worse than being in HS.
Again I'm terribly sorry for blasting my discontent and unhappiness here at you guys... I know I know shut up girl, quit complaining, do your work, it's only as hard as you make it, the list goes on and on but it doesn't help.
I'm not looking for a pat on the head and a it'll be alright it's just a rough patch and you'll get through it... I don't know what I'm looking for in writing this...
ho hum.
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padre:
Why are you so apologetic, you're entitled to how you feel. Besides I can understand this problem. I got blasted this morning for my blog, maybe justifiably but its how I feel. I wont apologize for that
sirkka:
i pm'ed you my number if you need to talk. ![kiss](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/kiss.fdbea70b77bb.gif)
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