radi0xactive

I am becoming a hermit, i hate going out in this fucking town! The worst part is it wasnt too long ago that the city was honestly trying to cleanup all the drunks and trash around and its seems like they have abandonned that idea all together and are just tearing down alot of buisness' and building them again, to give Chilliwack 'brand new' look.
Its always nice to see not even the mayor of Chilliwack has enough faith in this crappy ass town to see his plans through.

Okay, i think i may still be a bit bitter from this whole job searching bullshit. Its fucking hard when you dont have a vehicle to take you places, i know this may qualify to be one of the stupideat things ive ever said, but, i almost just want some night in shinning amour to come out of no where and swoop me off my feet, and get me the fuck out of this shithole for good. I am starting to wonder if it is healthy for me to even be growing up here, i feel like ever since i have been out of work here slowly i have been sub-conciously killing my hopes and dreams with smoking weed.
massive amounts of dope.
massive.
my mom is out of town for three weeks as we speak, that has defenitly not helped with the lack of motivation i have.
All i have been doing is drugs, fucking and playing video games. Its been a blast, im not complaining on that aspect of things, its just when i look back on this a weeks days from now, whens the partying is all over and all i have left is a empty wallrt and mess that will keep me cleaning for days, none of it really seemed that fun.
i know all i am doing it waiting for that one ticket out of here, thats all i need is one person to save me and ill be back on my feet.
recover the state of mind some like to call sanity,