por·trait
ˈpôrtrət,ˈpôrˌtrāt/
noun
1.
a painting, photograph, sculpture, or other artistic representation of a person, in which the face and its expression is predominant. The intent is to display the likeness, personality, and even the mood of the person.
I rarely post photographs of myself anymore. I prefer more than anything to be judged by my vision and brain through my photographs and captions that I share here.
”My soul is not contained within the limits of my body, my body is contained within the limitlessness of my soul.” - Jim Carrey
I am not the person I was yesterday, and I’m not the person I’ll be tomorrow but here is the physical representation of the person I am right now.
Lately the ocean is everything I want to be. . beautiful, mysterious, wild, free. Some of its qualities I wish I embodied more than others. Im learning more and more each day that its not really my decision all of the time. I'd like to consider my lifestyle this adventurous, careless, wild, and spontaneous thing but I am the complete opposite when it comes to my relationships with others. I loathe the feeling of being vulnerable. I hate having my brain and heart battle like siblings in a fight with no logical winner. I want to see the world, meet and learn from everyone I can but my nights are spent alone, happy, snuggled in my own bed. My adventures are typically solo expeditions with no agenda other than my own. I run a tight ship. This full circle ideology of being physically and emotionally independent has made for the happiest past three years of my life. I'll take this current dilemma as a growing experience. Maybe its not about being guarded or reserved. Some things. . especially the intangible ones just can't be controlled as easily. Im embracing it, learning, and ultimately growing up a little bit more. . Im not mad about that.
I'd like to thank everyone for all the love on my last suicide girls set, its a very special one for me. Out of all my sets over the years theres just something about this last one that makes me feel like a woman. Maybe its a mentality thing, or because it was shot by my little @cherry bird to whom I look up to so much, or just because its the end of a chapter in my life, a beginning of a new one. Either way it was a lovely surprise to wake up to. My life would be so different if I would've never joined this community. Its pushed me to grow in ways that I couldn't have elsewhere. Im excited to watch it grow and change in a different light, from a different perspective.
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