lets see...
first off, i have a few new friends on the list.. thanks to you all and welcome. folks, if they are new to you too, check em out and maybe make their lists as well.. as it turns out, i am quite a fan of the whole "friends" process here. while i was lucky enough to always have a good friend or two and never really felt lonely it really means a lot to me to make be your friend here. as i am gettin older and it is harder and harder to meet people that i want to associate with, it is nice to have found some people here (even if we have the cloak of the internet to mask us when we need it to!
) but i genuinely welcome the fact that i can open up and share and vent and whatever here... so, thanks.
on to my life......
-the weekend was great, as home always is. my dad, unfortunately is battling some infections and his colitis is acting up.. (being that he is bleeding and has the infection and all he jokes that he is on his period ) as shitty as my health problems are, my folks are in the same boat. colitis runs in the family on dad's side (so i will get to deal with THAT soone enough), dad also has really bad ulcers that once caused him to bleeed to death, only to be revived once at the hospital... mom is now (thankfully) a cancer survivor, and then there are all my lung stuff... so, while we may collectively be the toast of the ER sometimes, we are a pretty tough and resiliant bunch. but getting back to dad, it sucks to see him sick. however, as all good parents do, he somehow managed to pass his fever onto me so, thanks dad (haha)...
despite that, it was, as always great to see my folks. as they get older (they are in their 60's now) i am more and more in awe of them and the ways that they have lived their lives. they are both smart people who decided that happiness was not about making money or collecting posessions, or any of that shit. they love their jobs, love eachother, and love their family and friends. i hope that i turn out to be that good a parent some day...
-corrie remains a blessing. she met the folks (she was, in a word, terrified about the situation) but everything worked out great, of course.
my folks liked her, and she got a little less uncomfortable around them as the weekend went on. all good things! the hardest part for me was sunday. i had to drop her off at work and she started crying. she did not want me to leave and was/is having a hard time because she knows that i am going to be moving, but i dont know when (once there is a job i'm out of here). it is very very hard on her as patience is not one of her strongest suits. i tried to tell her to concentrate on what we DO have and what we will have when we finally are together, but it did not do much. to be honest, part of me feels bad that she takes it harder than i do. it is not that i dont want to be with her, but i guess i am just a bit more pragmatic about the situation, and the fact that i knew that we would be apart for a while from the outset. does that make me a bit callous, or just pragmatic???
-work sucks. hate mornings-even more so than in the past. i just am not built for the up at 4am in bed at 8pm. it is not much of a life that i look foreward every day to coming home and getting into bed.
i wish that i was vibrant like i used to be... damn.
-trying to figure out what to wear for halloween. we have this big party in dayton called "boo and brew" that the station sponsors. we shut down a street where all the bars are and it becomes like a mini mardi gras with people filling the street drinking in costumes and hanging out. i wanted to go as heroin, but i cant. (boss warned me about dressing 'inappropriately' this year... dick
) so i am at the drawing board. being sperm is in consideration, but i just dont know.... suggestions?
-i am sure that i could ramble on for longer, but i am simply not going to. i will, however, leave you with my favorite quote of all time. it comes from Albert Camus' essay called "The Myth of Sissyphys":
The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man's heart.
first off, i have a few new friends on the list.. thanks to you all and welcome. folks, if they are new to you too, check em out and maybe make their lists as well.. as it turns out, i am quite a fan of the whole "friends" process here. while i was lucky enough to always have a good friend or two and never really felt lonely it really means a lot to me to make be your friend here. as i am gettin older and it is harder and harder to meet people that i want to associate with, it is nice to have found some people here (even if we have the cloak of the internet to mask us when we need it to!
) but i genuinely welcome the fact that i can open up and share and vent and whatever here... so, thanks.
on to my life......
-the weekend was great, as home always is. my dad, unfortunately is battling some infections and his colitis is acting up.. (being that he is bleeding and has the infection and all he jokes that he is on his period
) as shitty as my health problems are, my folks are in the same boat. colitis runs in the family on dad's side (so i will get to deal with THAT soone enough), dad also has really bad ulcers that once caused him to bleeed to death, only to be revived once at the hospital... mom is now (thankfully) a cancer survivor, and then there are all my lung stuff... so, while we may collectively be the toast of the ER sometimes, we are a pretty tough and resiliant bunch. but getting back to dad, it sucks to see him sick. however, as all good parents do, he somehow managed to pass his fever onto me so, thanks dad (haha)...
despite that, it was, as always great to see my folks. as they get older (they are in their 60's now) i am more and more in awe of them and the ways that they have lived their lives. they are both smart people who decided that happiness was not about making money or collecting posessions, or any of that shit. they love their jobs, love eachother, and love their family and friends. i hope that i turn out to be that good a parent some day...
-corrie remains a blessing. she met the folks (she was, in a word, terrified about the situation) but everything worked out great, of course.
my folks liked her, and she got a little less uncomfortable around them as the weekend went on. all good things! the hardest part for me was sunday. i had to drop her off at work and she started crying. she did not want me to leave and was/is having a hard time because she knows that i am going to be moving, but i dont know when (once there is a job i'm out of here). it is very very hard on her as patience is not one of her strongest suits. i tried to tell her to concentrate on what we DO have and what we will have when we finally are together, but it did not do much. to be honest, part of me feels bad that she takes it harder than i do. it is not that i dont want to be with her, but i guess i am just a bit more pragmatic about the situation, and the fact that i knew that we would be apart for a while from the outset. does that make me a bit callous, or just pragmatic???
-work sucks. hate mornings-even more so than in the past. i just am not built for the up at 4am in bed at 8pm. it is not much of a life that i look foreward every day to coming home and getting into bed.
i wish that i was vibrant like i used to be... damn.
-trying to figure out what to wear for halloween. we have this big party in dayton called "boo and brew" that the station sponsors. we shut down a street where all the bars are and it becomes like a mini mardi gras with people filling the street drinking in costumes and hanging out. i wanted to go as heroin, but i cant. (boss warned me about dressing 'inappropriately' this year... dick
) so i am at the drawing board. being sperm is in consideration, but i just dont know.... suggestions?
-i am sure that i could ramble on for longer, but i am simply not going to. i will, however, leave you with my favorite quote of all time. it comes from Albert Camus' essay called "The Myth of Sissyphys":
The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man's heart.
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and hopefully then we can convince ya to come out with us to diamonds, even if its just for alittle while, cause we're gonna be there all nite!