It feels really strange waking up before 8AM... Even more strange that I went to bed before 5AM... Yesterday was mentaly exhausting and I'm just glad it's over. I've decided I need to find a new cofee shop or start buying good coffee for the house again because my ex works at the one down the street.. I really wish she and I could have remained friends, but it's just not working out that way. I also wish I wasn't so resentful about the whole thing, but even our mutual friends say I should be! I've decided it's just time to move on, we've been split up for months now and I haven't really been on one date! I need to start having a life outside of work again, all stress and no play is slowly driving me insane.
I've also decided that I will be leaving PA. by November. Where I'll be moving... well.. that's up in the air right now.. I have a few options, one being NYC, one being Los Angeles, and the third being Chicago. I really do miss Chicago, there's no place like it and I still consider it my home even though I haven't been there in a few years. I have a very good client there who would give me enough work to live on, and I'm sure I could find other clients there.. Hell, it's where I got started in this business! And perhaps the best reason to move back to Chicago.. A REALLY fucking nice apartment near grant park! 14th floor, nice balcony, jacuzzi, etc. The client I mentioned owns the building and has offered me this apartment for $500 a month! $500 a month for a $2000 a month apartment! It doesn't get much better than that. Chicago has it's negative aspects for me though... When I left there I was still a drunk, and a complete mess.. All of my old drinking friends are still there and would probably encourage me to go out and get shitfaced with them.. which is not usually a problem for me.. In fact, I enjoy going out with my friends out here who drink. These friends from Chicago drink like I used to though... That's a really bad thing! I'd probably be just fine, but I can't help being a little worried about it. I never want to go back to being the person I used to be..
LA seems like it might be a good idea, but for all the wrong reasons. In a way, moving out there is like running away. I know like one person out there! The only reason I've considered it is I have a very good client out there who has lots of rich friends who would just love for me to design and build them a killer home theater system. I doubt I'll actually move there, but the money would be very nice!
Manhattan seems to be the best option out of the three since my best clients live there and there will always be a ton of work for me. I really love New York and I think I'd enjoy living there again. The trick is finding a big enough apartment for around what I'm paying for the house out here... Those of you who know Manhattan know how difficult this can be! I guess I could always live at the hotel like I have pretty much been doing already
I don't know.. All I know is I've given myself almost a year to make a decision and act on it.
I've also decided that I should sell my house in Tennesse because I never end up going there! I haven't been there in over a year and a half! It's just costing me money when it could be making me money. I'd never actually live there anyway, I'm a city person and I always will be. I love being out in the middle of nowhere for a vacation, but not living out there. So yes... the house will be sold ASAP! I should walk away with enough cash to be set up somewhere for a year or so while I get settled in and find new clients.
All this stuff sounds really good and everything.. now it's just a matter of actually sticking to it! The last time I told myself I was going to leave PA, I met my ex and ended up staying! It was worth it though I guess.. I learned a valuable lesson and we did have some good times together. I came pretty close to buying a house in Northern Liberties and really planting my roots here... I don't know.. I guess we'll just see what happens.. In the meantime.. I need breakfast and music to listen to while I do this weeks paperwork and scheduling. I'd really like to go back to bed, but I should get this crap done so I don't have to do it tomorrow!
I've also decided that I will be leaving PA. by November. Where I'll be moving... well.. that's up in the air right now.. I have a few options, one being NYC, one being Los Angeles, and the third being Chicago. I really do miss Chicago, there's no place like it and I still consider it my home even though I haven't been there in a few years. I have a very good client there who would give me enough work to live on, and I'm sure I could find other clients there.. Hell, it's where I got started in this business! And perhaps the best reason to move back to Chicago.. A REALLY fucking nice apartment near grant park! 14th floor, nice balcony, jacuzzi, etc. The client I mentioned owns the building and has offered me this apartment for $500 a month! $500 a month for a $2000 a month apartment! It doesn't get much better than that. Chicago has it's negative aspects for me though... When I left there I was still a drunk, and a complete mess.. All of my old drinking friends are still there and would probably encourage me to go out and get shitfaced with them.. which is not usually a problem for me.. In fact, I enjoy going out with my friends out here who drink. These friends from Chicago drink like I used to though... That's a really bad thing! I'd probably be just fine, but I can't help being a little worried about it. I never want to go back to being the person I used to be..
LA seems like it might be a good idea, but for all the wrong reasons. In a way, moving out there is like running away. I know like one person out there! The only reason I've considered it is I have a very good client out there who has lots of rich friends who would just love for me to design and build them a killer home theater system. I doubt I'll actually move there, but the money would be very nice!
Manhattan seems to be the best option out of the three since my best clients live there and there will always be a ton of work for me. I really love New York and I think I'd enjoy living there again. The trick is finding a big enough apartment for around what I'm paying for the house out here... Those of you who know Manhattan know how difficult this can be! I guess I could always live at the hotel like I have pretty much been doing already
I don't know.. All I know is I've given myself almost a year to make a decision and act on it.
I've also decided that I should sell my house in Tennesse because I never end up going there! I haven't been there in over a year and a half! It's just costing me money when it could be making me money. I'd never actually live there anyway, I'm a city person and I always will be. I love being out in the middle of nowhere for a vacation, but not living out there. So yes... the house will be sold ASAP! I should walk away with enough cash to be set up somewhere for a year or so while I get settled in and find new clients.
All this stuff sounds really good and everything.. now it's just a matter of actually sticking to it! The last time I told myself I was going to leave PA, I met my ex and ended up staying! It was worth it though I guess.. I learned a valuable lesson and we did have some good times together. I came pretty close to buying a house in Northern Liberties and really planting my roots here... I don't know.. I guess we'll just see what happens.. In the meantime.. I need breakfast and music to listen to while I do this weeks paperwork and scheduling. I'd really like to go back to bed, but I should get this crap done so I don't have to do it tomorrow!
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go to NY!!!!! thats where im goin i think. its so so so too fantastic there
Well, I can see that. You need to spoil yourself sometimes though.
I haven't bought any yet...I think I have to go to the bank and talk to them. I don't have a mastercard or visa and they have this quick one time card thing via internet, but I din't get it to work, so I guess I'll have to ask them about it.