r0nin

What a miserably fucked up day! I got into it with just about everyone I came in contact with today for some reason.. I think it's a matter of not being able to do as much as I'd like to in this situation with my niece and all the legal bullshit surrounding it.. My stepdad is working 16 hour days right now so that my mom can afford this court case in order to get custody of my niece and in spite of all my efforts to convince him to do otherwise.. he just insists on doing it.. I have more respect for than man than just about anyone, especially my own father.. He's 54 years old and he's out there busting his ass as a result of something he's got absolutely nothing to do with, but he does it anyway because he just believes it's the right thing to do. People like him are few and far between and I'm glad my mom found him. I just hate seeing this situation get worse and worse for them, especially now when I can't do as much to help as I could have a couple months ago.. I put most of my savings into getting this house the way they wanted it and even adding a few things to make it more fun to live here for all of us. Right now I wish I had saved that money because at least I'd be able to give them the $9,000 they need to pay for this fucking lawyer.

Why is it that those of us who have had to overcome so much shit in life just keep getting hit with even more of it???? My family deserves a fucking break after all the shit we've been through! I dunno.. I just hate feeling helpless and that's exactly how I feel right now..