well, the good news is I haven't had a drink in like a week now.. The bad news is I want to strangle damn near every ignorant person I come in contact with, especially a certain aswipe down here at the marina who shouldn't even be breathing the same fucking air the rest of us breath, but hey... that's normal given the circumstances.. In a way, I'm glad I had that slip, it has forced me to really take a look at my life and rearange some things for the better. Aside from being a bit aggravated at times, my mind has never been so clear. I sat down with a pen and paper the other night and wrote another 4th step (AA) and what I found is I clear idea of what my biggest problems are.. Not to mention the fact that I owe a few people an amends of sorts.. I do feel bad that I may have lost a few friends over the slip, but I can't let that overwhelm me. It's time to fix the mess as best I can and get on with life. One of my favorite sayings has always been "Either get busy living or get busy dying!"
I am within just a few months of realizing one of my dreams and that is pretty fucking cool!! What is this dream you ask? Well, it's having almost complete freedom to go anywhere I want at any time. How is this possible you ask? With a little hard work and my new floating home! I spent all day today getting her seaworthy and everything checks out! I have some minor modifications to make on the engine, but aside from that.. she's ready to go. The next step is getting a satellite based internet connection so that I can work anywhere in the world.. This is the tough one.. I'll figure it out though..
I've wanted to do this almost my entire life. I've been to places all over the world, but there are still so many I have yet to see. I've never been the sort of person who likes to stay in one place for a long period of time and I feel as though I've stayed here far longer than I should have. I don't want to settle down some place, I don't want a normal life.. I have never wanted these things.. I feel most alive while experiencing new things and new places. I like talking to new people and learning about other cultures because God knows our's leaves a lot to be desired..
It's 3 in the morning, all is quiet and peaceful down here by the water, and I have an ear-to-ear smile that just won't go away. Life is good! There is nothing like having a sense of direction and purpose..
UPDATE: So an hour or so ago I decided to see what was left on another boat that sank several times here at the marina. I figured I'd be able to use some of the wood trim and other odds and ends, so I rummaged through everything and found a ton of electronics that had been submerged for who knows how long. They didn't look rusted, so I took everything out and cleaned them up a bit so I could test them. I managed to save a 19" Dell monitor and I'm using it right now to watch Revenge Of The Sith on DVD!! Unfortunately I could not save the DVD Player and the Surround Sound Receiver... I guess they were not made very well..
I also took a practicaly new Dell PC, cleaned it up, tore it apart, and now I'm drying everything out. I'm thinking I may be able to get it working. Damn me and my pack rat tendancies!! I'm gonna wind up with too much shit on my boat if I'm not careful. I suppose I should go back to the other boat before dark and grab the wood trim I originaly came for...
I am within just a few months of realizing one of my dreams and that is pretty fucking cool!! What is this dream you ask? Well, it's having almost complete freedom to go anywhere I want at any time. How is this possible you ask? With a little hard work and my new floating home! I spent all day today getting her seaworthy and everything checks out! I have some minor modifications to make on the engine, but aside from that.. she's ready to go. The next step is getting a satellite based internet connection so that I can work anywhere in the world.. This is the tough one.. I'll figure it out though..
I've wanted to do this almost my entire life. I've been to places all over the world, but there are still so many I have yet to see. I've never been the sort of person who likes to stay in one place for a long period of time and I feel as though I've stayed here far longer than I should have. I don't want to settle down some place, I don't want a normal life.. I have never wanted these things.. I feel most alive while experiencing new things and new places. I like talking to new people and learning about other cultures because God knows our's leaves a lot to be desired..
It's 3 in the morning, all is quiet and peaceful down here by the water, and I have an ear-to-ear smile that just won't go away. Life is good! There is nothing like having a sense of direction and purpose..
UPDATE: So an hour or so ago I decided to see what was left on another boat that sank several times here at the marina. I figured I'd be able to use some of the wood trim and other odds and ends, so I rummaged through everything and found a ton of electronics that had been submerged for who knows how long. They didn't look rusted, so I took everything out and cleaned them up a bit so I could test them. I managed to save a 19" Dell monitor and I'm using it right now to watch Revenge Of The Sith on DVD!! Unfortunately I could not save the DVD Player and the Surround Sound Receiver... I guess they were not made very well..
I also took a practicaly new Dell PC, cleaned it up, tore it apart, and now I'm drying everything out. I'm thinking I may be able to get it working. Damn me and my pack rat tendancies!! I'm gonna wind up with too much shit on my boat if I'm not careful. I suppose I should go back to the other boat before dark and grab the wood trim I originaly came for...
kyleomen:
I gotta say that I'm happy for you. Sail into that sunset!