Wednesday night I made a terrible mistake and got drunk for the first time in almost 4 years.. As far as I know, I did nothing really bad that night.. As far as I know I didn't yeall at anyone or do any of the shit I used to do before I quit drinking 4 years ago.. Whatever. I'm not gonna justify what I did, it was FUCKING STUPID!
What I am really torn up about is the fact that nearly every single person I have told about this incident has since turned their backs on me! Some of them didn't even know me when I used to drink! It was a mistake, plain and simple! It is not one that I care to repeat again very soon, if at all.. I should know after all this time, once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.. To lose as many friends as I just did over one incident hurts, but I guess it says something about the quality of people I chose to call friends. I've always been one to support my friends no matter what happens and I certainly wouldn't ditch them over a fucking slip! I'm not saying they should be alright with what happened, but to completely turn their backs on me.. WTF!?!
Fuck it! and fuck YOU!! if you're one of those people!
I've been through more bad shit in the last 8 or 9 years than most people should have to go through in a lifetime and if I can make it through all that, what the fuck do I need these so-called friends for? If there is one thing that has always pissed me off, it's when people are real quick to judge without knowing all the facts! You can't judge a person without putting yourself in his or her shoes! If you can't do that, you have NO FUCKING RIGHT AT ALL!!!
What I am really torn up about is the fact that nearly every single person I have told about this incident has since turned their backs on me! Some of them didn't even know me when I used to drink! It was a mistake, plain and simple! It is not one that I care to repeat again very soon, if at all.. I should know after all this time, once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.. To lose as many friends as I just did over one incident hurts, but I guess it says something about the quality of people I chose to call friends. I've always been one to support my friends no matter what happens and I certainly wouldn't ditch them over a fucking slip! I'm not saying they should be alright with what happened, but to completely turn their backs on me.. WTF!?!
Fuck it! and fuck YOU!! if you're one of those people!
I've been through more bad shit in the last 8 or 9 years than most people should have to go through in a lifetime and if I can make it through all that, what the fuck do I need these so-called friends for? If there is one thing that has always pissed me off, it's when people are real quick to judge without knowing all the facts! You can't judge a person without putting yourself in his or her shoes! If you can't do that, you have NO FUCKING RIGHT AT ALL!!!